Just a warning before you read too far…these are my raw “I’m freaking out a little here” feelings on today. Just verbally processing…
I’m sitting here in the AIM office on my first day of “work” trying to figure out what in the world I’m doing. In case you’re wondering why I’m here and not on my way to India yet, let me explain. In signing up to go to India, part of my commitment is to be an “apprentice” at AIM for six months. This means I’ll be working in the office every day from 9-5 (definitely NOT my idea of fun), learning how to function as part of this community, learning more about myself and my team, planning what ministry might look like in India, doing a bunch of reading (love this part!), and just figuring out what life is going to look like with these amazing women that are my family for the next two years.
I’m not good at offices. I’m not good at sitting in one place all day long or being quiet or working hard when other people are around. I tend to be very easily distracted and am often not highly self-motivated, and this combination is making my first day in the office very stretching. It’s not that I don’t want to be here, because if I don’t learn how things work on this side it’s going to be very difficult to function as an integral part of this team when we get overseas. I’m actually pretty excited about how stretching these next six months are going to be, while at the same time am very nervous about getting stuck in the rut of a routine and not being able to see the beauty and joy in everyday life. I think this is great preparation for India, but I know at the same time it’s going to be difficult.
Headphones are going to be my saving grace these six months. They allow me (just like when I was on the race) to escape into my own little world even when there are a million things going on around me. I’m thankful today for itunes and for the distraction it provides!
And that’s about as far as the thoughts are going today. Maybe later this week I’ll update on what life in the office is really like 🙂
