Loving people is hard stuff. You think that if you give you will receive in return, but something I have learned this month is that statement is not always true. Which makes the loving process that much harder. We have this mindset that if we pursue it will just come naturally. It will come easy and we will be rewarded by our efforts. Is that true love? A love based on what you will receive? I think we all know the answer to that one. It is love, but not a love for another rather a love of self. When I went down deep to the heart of how I love I realized that what I found was not pretty. It was pure love of self. My whole life relationships were built with those you loved because they loved you back. The difficult people to love were the ones I avoided partly because they made me uncomfortable and partly because I never received anything from them.
Trust me when you come to this realization you have some pretty nasty thoughts about that same flesh you were trying to feed. You are brought low. You are humbled. Hopefully you are changed.
What do you do when someone does not love you back? Do you turn and run? Do you face the fight? Now that’s a battle worth thought.
