Last night I was down on my knees fervently praying. Have you ever had one of those moments when it seemed as if the world around you was crashing in, and suddenly the only thing left to do was cry out? Normally when I have these moments I will run to the person next to me and ask them to fix me or make things better. Growing up the person next to me was my parents, in high school it was my young life leader, and in college it has been the person I am dating at the time. For once I didn't feel that there was anyone next to me, and in this moment something amazing happened. I got on my knees, and the only thing that could come out of my lips was thank you Jesus. I became ever aware that God is my refuge, my strength, and the person who above all desires me to run to him in times of need. I cried out to the Lord and He granted me peace. I think we need Christ like community but it is important for us to remember that God desires our hearts. The first line of the song How He Loves comes into mind every time I think of how the Lord desires us. It is these words that have echoed loud in my ears today " He is jealous for me!"
This year God has taken me on a wild ride. I have given up a relationship I help onto dearly. I have excepted that God has bigger plans for me than I have for myself. I have had to try and explain to my family, especially my dad why I feel called to do the World Race. I have embarked on the last year of college. I have seen poverty and brokenness both here in the states and abroad (In Guatemala). I have cried but also laughed in abundance. I have prayed many prayers and God has answered. God has granted me community here at school; a prayer I have prayed for four years. This list could could go on and on!
I am ashamed that it has taken me this long to turn my phone off, tune my heart to only ONE, and cry out in thanksgiving. God is so good always and in everything. I am praying today that I would never again take my eyes off the brilliance of God.
