So, I have realized that my past several blogs have been quite on the serious side [not that there's anything wrong with that!]… but now it's time to just plop on my comfy couch, drink some sleepy time tea, and write an update on my life, what I've been doing lately, and how I am feeling about the World Race!!!
Exactly two weeks ago, on Monday August 15th, I packed my bags, said goodbye to my close friends at Teen Mania's Honor Academy in Lindale, TX, my dear home for the past two years, and moved back to my other home in CT.
me and my some of my former bandmates during our final moments together XD
The past couple weeks I've had time to unwind, settle back at home, and process everything God did in my life during my season at the Honor Academy. (If you're wondering… what is this "Honor Academy" she keeps talking about- click here for more info 🙂 The transition from an atmosphere of young adults passionately seeking the Lord daily while being constantly poured into through classes, life-transforming events, etc. back into the real world, which is quite different, has been challenging, yet refreshing. I'm learning a lot about depending on God, trusting in His faithfulness, and leaning on His understanding, not my own. I'm also realizing that there are countless broken people surrounding me, many that are Christians, who are in desperate need of God's love to heal and restore their hearts. God continues to challenge me daily to be an effective witness for His name, yet often times I've been so wrapped up in my own schedule or "comfort zone" to obey Him or even listen when He speaks. My prayer the past couple days has been, "God, let me be more attentive and bold in following You wherever you lead!!"
My heart often begins to hurt when I enter a music store, sing or play the piano, or even turn the Christian radio station on. Knowing I've let go of an opportunity to do what I've always dreamed of doing- touring the U.S. and leading worship with a band in front of audiences of thousands- and seeing my former band and closest friends about to pursue this dream without me hits hard. (Read my blog "His Call -> My Obedience" for more of that story). Loneliness tends to creep in, causing me to feel weak and throw those dreams away completely… yet God's strength renews my hope each day, knowing that I am clearly following HIS path.
He has called me to the nations to serve and exemplify His love to others, which I will be doing through the World Race! How could I NOT be excited about that? I am learning that it is FAR more worth it to follow God's plan, no matter what the cost, and obey Him. My life is not my own, but His! And I truly find such peace and joy that He's given me this opportunity to do just that.
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