It’s been 4.5 months.
Exactly.
And I often find myself discontent and frustrated.
I talked to another Racer and she articulated the same feelings.
“I’m happy with my job and what I do, but at the bottom of it all, I still want to go back. Do you ever feel like that?”
I could have shouted my response from the rooftop–YES!
I want to go back to my babies in Swaziland and to my kids in Thailand and to Vineyard Church in Coleraine, Northern Ireland. I want to spend one more day with Kumar in Malaysia and have another squad worship sesh. I want to prayer walk through the red light district and proclaim freedom over Islamic countries.
But for now, that’s not where God has me.
And ohmygoodness, I have soooo much to rejoice in here at home and I know that there are so many people to minister to here at home, but my heart is still halfway around the world and I don’t know when it will return back.
But today, embers of hope and faith began to burn deeply in my soul after a dinner with three people from the math department where we decided to begin Operation Kindness and try to encourage our fellow teachers.
My heart swelled within me as my God reminded me of the power of hope and the boldness of faith.
I am a light. It does not matter where you put me. The light of God is going to shine brightly and I am responsible for bringing God’s kingdom.
Whether it’s taking the youth to a Sixers game, so I can build a connection with some of the younger girls or starting random acts of kindness to encourage teachers that they are seen and valued and appreciated, the seeds that I am sowing will reap a harvest.
But…
it takes time.
Nothing grows over night.
No one adjusts to a new season overnight.
No one integrates into a community overnight.
No one rebuilds friendships overnight.
No one sees the tireless hours of teaching and mentoring and loving kids pay off overnight.
It takes time.
But the Holy Spirit inside of me reminded me that I have enough hope, enough faith, enough patience, enough grace to hold on to his promise–it will all get better, He will make all things new.
It just takes time.
