Another World Racer posted this article on our Facebook group and so I got the e-mail alert and I clicked it. Now, I had already read the headline a few days ago, but I was awash with helplessness and so I just pushed the article out of my mind and moved on with my life.
Now to give you some backstory before I let you know what I'm thinking right now, I want you to know that it is Friday and every. single. day this week has been wonderful. I have been overflowing with joy day in and day out. I haven't been happy 24/7, but I have had a joy that has changed everything about this week. My perspective has been completely changed by the joy of the Lord.
So I was just typing away doing my work for Communications class and about to do some work for my internship when I read the article and now I feel stuck. I feel confused. I feel sick. I feel sorrow. I feel grief. I feel torn. I feel broken.
Even though I had a great day everyday, I was not in la la land. I was and am still aware that I live in a very broken world, which is why it was my perogative to share as much of my joy as possible because I know that this world is full of sorrow. Well, I was definitely reminded of that sorrow when I read the article.
I am at school, but I still want to just cry out, "God, why!? God, help!" I understand that it is not God's job to go and rescue the captives and fight for the oppressed, no, that is our job. He gave us his HOLY SPIRIT and told us that we have power and we have a responsibility to fight the kingdom of darkness and snatch people out of the fire and bring them into the kingdom of God. But right now, I cannot do anything besides pray and today's just one of those days where prayer just doesn't seem like it's enough.
You know what I mean?
God made beautiful things out of dust. He made beautiful things out of us. We had the best deal ever–chilling with God in the garden and now it's all messed up. It's all screwed up man. People are committing suicide left and right; kids are cutting; people are killing innocent people; there's fraud and corruption; there's rape; there's slavery; there's brutality and greed and materialism and false prophets and idolatry and more.
It can all be so overwhelming. But in perfect God-timing, the song "Stronger" by Hillsong Live just started playing on my playlist and it's like I can hear God calling out through all my confusion, through all my sorrow "I am stronger. Dear one, I am stronger. Just exalt my name and I can do marvelous things that you cannot even imagine. I am still in the business of saving the lost."
"You are stronger, you are stronger. Sin is broken. You have saved me. It is written. Christ is risen. Jesus, You are Lord of all." –"Stronger" by Hillsong
Because of this. Because this is true. I am like Paul who says in 2 Corinthians 6:10 "Sorrowful, yet always rejoicing"
