Journal Entry – Halfway through the race. My heart is both full and empty. I am tired, yet fully awake and alive. Something inside of me longs for stability, for continuity. My team has changed in some way almost every month of the race. Our contacts, ministry, local friendships have changed every month. I feel that this month more than others. I find myself identifying with Paul and how he longed to return to the places and people he had met along his missionary journeys. Oh how my heart wishes for more time in each country. This month, our contacts and the boys in their home have made their way into my heart. Sometimes, I don’t know how to push deeper with friendships and connections knowing I am leaving so soon. I have one more week with these boys and I want to spend every moment that I can with them, even though it will be harder to leave them at the end of the month. I know with my whole heart that I am made for nations, but the desire to more to another nation and stay is becoming deeper and deeper. I want to go and not have to leave again. Oh, to have history with a people, a church, a nation. They say it is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. Sometimes, loving and leaving over and over again is really hard.
My prayer for the next 5 ½ months is a deeper relationship with Jesus – the One who never changes – and for a heart that is able to continue to love new people and places.
These are a few of the people that have left their mark on my heart this year….
South Africa
Swaziland
India
Nepal
Thailand
Cambodia
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