Training camp was amazing and an interesting experience for me because it wasn’t an emotional life changing experience in itself (or so i thought). But it was beautiful. When I left for camp I was anxious, being attacked, wanting to run in every direction I could to escape my circumstance, unsettled and afraid. In the week I was at camp God did something in my heart. Nothing on account for what I have done… I in fact choose to deny God by nature, to run from Him, to please my earthly needs, feed the sinful nature inside of me, to choose sin…
Praise God for grace! By his LOVE, GRACE and MERCY he chose to do a work in me. This work was done despite my shortcomings. Today I sit here complete. I think that I have used these words before… said the right things, even desired to believe it was possible but never experienced it. Or maybe I have been here before but because my expectations kept me from feeling it or comprehending it. Perhaps my circumstances separated me from this freedom I am experiencing now. Perhaps I didn’t really want it, I mean it is so much easier to control things and look to the world to complete me and my joy… BUT NO!!!
Today I sit here complete in a new way I am not thinking about what God might do with me tomorrow, searching to understand the reasons why or wishing for things I don’t have… but instead I am here, my heart at perfect peace, resting in the Truths, the Promises… my authority and identity in the Kingdom. I am a daughter of Christ, a Princess in the Kingdom of Heaven, I inherit perfect peace, perfect and complete joy, perfect love, comfort, power, healing and restoration. I don’t deserve it but it has been given to me. I am complete! FREEDOM!!!! Jesus is alive and he lives inside of me.
This is just the start… here we go on this journey… and there is only more to learn.
AMEN!
