I wanted to start this out with a little fun fact about me. I was in a band when I was 8 years old called ‘CRC-t3’ with my two cousins. Wait, it was hardly a band. It was more like a singing group with the occasional piano in the background. CRC-t3 stood for our last initials and the t-3 meant terrific three. We were pretty much rock stars. I would be willing to mail you an autograph if you’d like. No but really, we loved it and had so much fun. We would put on concerts at every family gathering. Literally. Looking back I can just imagine what everyone was thinking!
I’m pretty sure this is when my love for worship started. We would sit in our room for hours, writing songs to Jesus and learning how to harmonize with each other. It makes me laugh when I look back but it clearly confirms God’s hand at work even then. Ever since those younger years I have recognized a deep desire for worship and a longing to know more about it. Although, as I reached my teenage years I stopped pursuing it. I began believing the lie that I wasn’t good enough and that I needed to let go of childhood dreams.
This race has absolutely resurrected that passion and dream! God has been speaking to me so much about His heart for worship as well as mine. I am learning that it’s not about what my voice sounds like, how good I can harmonize, what songs I can write or my skill. It’s not about being a musician or even a worship leader. It’s simply a state of being. It’s who I am. I am worship! You are worship!
I found that as I began to open up to this dream lies were uncovered. There were roots of performance and fear that I had been operating in. I am now beginning to walk out of these and enter a new season. I am experiencing freedom to sing out and just go with it. Being worship. It’s exciting! I still have a desire and longing to learn more. There is a lot more that Jesus has for me in this. It's good though. I don’t have any expectations, agenda or pressure, I get to be me and be with my favorite person in the world. I feel the most alive when I am worshipping. I am praying that childhood dreams would be resurrected in you this month. Nothing is impossible with Him.
A few things that I've learned/learning about worship:
1. Worship is a lifestyle
1a. Worship is who we are
1b. Worship is a heart thing
2. Worship is intimacy
3. Worship is God's heart beat
4. Worship is found in every season
