Since I’ve been in Swaziland, I’ve been thinking a lot about who God is creating me into. I’ve been asking a lot of questions, such as what I’m supposed to do when I get home and who I am supposed to minister to and with.
I can honestly say I do not know. I have no clue what happens after the last day of Final Debrief and how it’s going to happen. Am I still going to be living in Madison and working with the same organization I worked with before leaving on the Race?
Currently my mind is asking a bunch of questions-things my humanity wants to know. However, what God is telling me is I do not need to know nor am I being content with what He is doing here and around me.
This is what I know…
- I am NOT the same person I was when I left for the World Race in September.
- I have witnessed much more poverty, much more heartbreak and also, so much joy and peace than I expected (and it’s only month 5)
- God has created me to be a mother. He has created me to love upon children in all forms, whether black, white, handicapped, blind, deaf, lame or mute.
I am walking into a new fight.
I, Rachel Martin, am fighting for the children who can’t feed themselves, who don’t know love and who can’t sit up without the help of someone else. I, Rachel Martin, am choosing to pursue what the Lord has intended for my life and that is fighting for those who can’t fight for themselves.
I have fallen in love with these children and I don’t know how to leave them. Now how do I deal with that?
Meet Mukelo.
This girl was abandoned near the hospital almost 2 months ago. I don’t understand why, but Mukelo has Cerebral Palsy. She is only 15 months. If I could adopt her, I would in a heartbeat. She is beautiful. As you mention the name Jesus to her, her body loosens up. You can see Our Creator in this sweet, innocent child who deserves better.
Meet Meluleki.
His heart is precious. When I first met Meluleki, both of his hands were wrapped as he was just in a car accident. He couldn’t feed himself as a 12 year-old boy and it broke my heart. Meluleki was all by himself and no one was there to help him out, so I started to feed him as I was able to do so. Meluleki’s mother was working and in order to pay for the medical bills, wasn’t able to stay with her son. I don’t understand this, but clearly God has blessed our relationship. Just so you know…I saw Meluleki today and he was in such good spirits. He was smiling and laughing.
God has called me to be a peacemaker, a mother and a healer.
