Drowning. I feel like I can’t escape. Anything I do, there is an oppression. I know the September squad can relate very well with this, but if I make a mistake, I hear about it in a condemning way. It’s not from people, but the enemy. The enemy is moving on this group of faithful people like a wildfire. HOPE! Even though, we (as a squad) are facing many difficult things, we are united. This is a tight-knit group…the majority of us have never met, yet we are tight…the reality of this is the enemy wants to rip us apart and bring us down. This is not and I mean NOT going to happen. *I’ve never been more sure of anything in my life and this is it! I KNOW God’s going to move through this 65-70 people now (March 22nd, 2011) on to the trip and even past that. We are going to see ridiculous things that only Jesus can do. We are going to see truth proclaimed from the rooftops, people set free from bounds of injustice and love cast out fear.
I look at the first video posted below and see complete joy in this. *Sidenote: Joy is not the same thing as happiness, because joy is unending. Happiness, on other hand, is. Because of Jesus, the enemy has no power over us. Sure, he thinks he does, but boy is he mistaken! Even though we are walking with burden and pain, Jesus is walking it with us. It’s encouraging to know that I am not doing this alone or even with a team of like-minded people, but with Jesus, the author and perfector of our faith. I’m not fighting, Jesus is and already has.
Desperation Band has a song called “Counting on God,” and at this moment, can’t help but post this also.
“…Joy unspeakable that won’t go away, and just enough strength to live out today, so I never have to worry what tomorrow will bring. ‘Cuz my faith is on solid rock, I’m counting on God.”
