He said, “OVERHAUL“.
On my way down to AZ with Derek we stopped in to Tulsa, OK to see MY BEST
FRIEND FOREVER & ETERNITY… Jeime Warnking. (a running
thing we have BFFE) We were blessed to be able to sit in on some classes
at Rhema – Bible College where Jeime attends. Derek and I sat in on a class on healing… I definitely was hoping Derek
would pick up a thing or two (as I thought he needed most help) ha – ha – ha…
typical. Well, little did I know the instructor (Harlen Jacobs) came over to me
amongst a group of about 60 in a very large room. He walked up to me as I sat in the very back
of the class with Derek and asked if he could pray for me. It was in the middle or so of his class in
which he was talking quite a bit about knowing WHO WE ARE IN CHRIST is
key to operating in any respect of true healing for ourselves or for
ministering to others.
On one palm of my hands was some notes I’d written from the class before. Harlen noticed them (pretty obvious – in
sharpie marker) The “notes” were about something I the LORD showed me in the
class prior to this one…of my Identity in HIM… HE talked to me about our
fingertips being a place of Identity. That we all differ in the make-up of our
fingerprint. But HE is part of my
Identity. I find myself in HIM. I saw HIS NAME
written out on all my fingerprints.
went on to tell me that I leave an imprint of HIM with everyone that I touch.
So I proceeded to write on my hand what I saw.
I didn’t share it with anyone… I just had it on my hand and it was taken
“note” of as I opened my hands to Harlen to receive the prayer he felt led to
impart. What he said next I was NOT
prepared for.
He said, “OVERHAUL“. – over and
over and over. My hands dropped down at
absolute surrender and there was some fear to the word that was given. Not fear of God and anger or the like… but the
fear of dying to myself MORE. I thought
“whoa, this is a very powerful and packed word”… he touched me and I fell back
in tears – and deep sobbing. I didn’t
know what this meant, I knew God was a part of it… so I trusted the feelings
that were surfacing… but it was deep to say the least. I laid on the floor crying for a few
minutes. As I started to get up he
approached me again and imparted something more… this time I felt peace. I fell
back again and just laid in peace. I
feel like something was broken off of me, or within me the first round and the
second God filled me with a healing peace of some kind.
So this word. What’s with this
word?
I was in a MAJOR (still am) TRANSITION in my life. Especially regarding Derek. We drove down from MN to AZ so that Derek
could use my car while I headed up to school here in WA where I am now. Things were not great (to say the least)… I
had such unrest in my spirit about all the transition and all the unknowns. I
was in A new territory of Trust with God… and this word freaked me out… until I
looked it up. What did it even mean?
This is what I found.
verb (used with object)
overhauled by an expert mechanic. (dictionary example)
to be OVERHAULED by her loving Father God because it’s only the work of Jesus
that can make real and lasting change in her life where change and
transformation is needed.
investigate or examine thoroughly for repair
or revision:
next few months God was letting me know He was planning on doing an overhaul of
some mindsets I have been locked into.
to gain upon, catch up with, or overtake, as
in a race.
up with me so that an overhaul can take place.
for examination. We choose to allow Him.
Also, o·ver haul·ing. a general examination and repair:
need of a major overhaul. (dictionary example)
I was/am badly in need of a major overhaul. Good thing I have the my Maker to make the necessary repairs. Clearly I am not the one – I got into the
mess… He’s here to clean me up.
happening the past few months… One thing
that’s been happening is my heart has been softening and finding peace in
Jesus. It’s a peace that I’m finding in trusting Him. Trusting that God is going to work something
out, going to make it work, going to pull it all together. This doesn’t mean I sit idle in all situations…
but in some I am to stay put, sit still and not say anything. This is hard for me. VERY!
God’s timing is
perfect but ours… NOT SO MUCH.
Ecc.
3:11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also, he has put eternity
into the heart of man, yet so that he cannot find out what God has
done from the beginning to the end.
The
overhaul I have been feeling it’s tweeks and twinges have a lot to do with
CONTROL. I like to be in control, (I
think everyone does to some degree or another) I like to have a “handle on
things”, to perhaps have a say (even if I don’t get my way) and to KNOW that
something will turn out in my favor. Well… this walking by faith thing… doesn’t so much guarantee that things
turn out the way that I want – but as I trust God they turn out the way that I
need… or that He needs in situations, seasons and circumstances.
is to know HIM… to know His character, His nature, His way, His voice, His
presence. In this, I have peace, in this I learn to trust. In this I am able to
Cast my Cares upon Him because He cares
me… and really actually understand that… really get that… (NEXT BLOG!)
Cast all your care upon Him, for He cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7
This is how I am learning
to live and it’s helping me SO much! Combating
the control craze that will rile up within me sometimes. This is part of the overhaul that God has me
undergoing. He’s identified an area that
needed necessary repair. I had to check
in with my Maker for a heart investigation… for a heart examination. Attitudes and mindsets that needed to be
repaired and revised! (NOTE: this includes more areas than the control factor.)
He doesn’t just put His finger on one thing when we give Him access to our
hearts. He does a total and complete
examination… Often the process He walks us through one step at a time… or
sometimes… He will do a compete OVERHAUL on willing hearts ready for the
OVERTAKING and shaking up. He’s got a plan… I don’t know what it entails
completely… but it’s WILD… it’s GREAT and FULL of HIM… and I told HIM – – –
“YES.”
This is what He waits
to hear. OVERHAUL has been engaged and it’s looking GOOD!
Are there areas that
need an OVERHAUL in your life? My whole life needed it, my heart needed it… But
God doesn’t fight our efforts, Jesus is a gentleman and waits until we
(literally) say,”YES, and AMEN” to HIM.
