The Lord has been doing some weird things lately… which is not surprising i suppose… and i say weird… because it blows me away at the way He works, and Who He is… Never ending… THANK GOD! So exciting….
Here are some things He was revealing to me… He made the connection of a vision and an experience with Him that has me in awe of His ways and workings… His love and teachings…
i wasn’t doing much… in general… lots of little things… but always spending time with God, including Him in my day. My walks, my conversations with others, my plans or days events and whatnot… i can’t remember if it was before or after… i think after my walk with Him that i came home and dropped to my knees and just bawled at the amount of love that i feel from Him… it was and is overwhelming at times. So much so that i was crying to Him that He HAS TO give me an outlet or outlets to release this love. Do i need to go back to the Ukraine and touch my babies, do i need to volunteer somewhere? Whatever it is… PLEASE give me something for Your love to be poured into… onto… whatever.
i laughed and cried. Laughing and saying to Him… “oh God what a HORRIBLE problem to have!” Not knowing where to allow Your love to overflow. To have so much love and not know what to do with it. i am thankful. But it’s overwhelming sometimes… i need/needed a outlet of release.
On my drive down to Chicago (march 19) to go and surprise my sister Lauren for her birthday with my sister Meghann… i was reading from my book “Come Away My Beloved” Frances J. Roberts (which has been a book that GODS VOICE speaks to me in insane ways…)
Here’s an excerpt i reread and God fit some pieces of the vision and overall feelings i have been experiencing lately into this.
The Love Covenant
All paths of the Lord are mercy and truth,
To such as keep His covenant.
Psalm 25:10
My children, there is no good thing that I would withhold from you. I have not left you to fend for yourselves not to make you way by your own devices. I am the Lord your God. I am your provider and your defender. I care for you with a deep and tender love. I am all-wise and all-powerful and will be your defense against every onslaught of the enemy.
Anticipate My help. I will not fail you. Look down at the path before you. You will see the print of My feet. “I will go before you and make the crooked places straight” (Isaiah 45:2). I will make the path ready for you as you follow.
It is a joy to My heart when My children rely on Me. I delight in working many things out for you, but I delight even more in you yourself than anything you do for Me.
Service is the salvage of love. It is like the twelve baskets of bread that were left over. The bread that was eaten was like fellowship mutually given; the excess and overflow was a symbol of service. I do not expect you to give to others until you have first eaten. I will provide you with a plentiful supply to give if you first come to receive for your own needs.
This is not selfishness. It is the Law of Life. Can the stalk of corn produce the ear unless first it receives its own life from the parent seed? No more can you produce fruit in your ministry unless you are impregnated with divine life from its source in God Himself. It was from the hands of Christ that the multitudes recieved bread. From His hands you also must receive your nurture, the Bread of Life to sustain your health and your life.
This is His love-covenant with you. It is the message of John 15:4 “Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, unless you abide in Me.” This abiding is a love relationship, and this is why service is the salvage of love.
Service will be futile and burdensome unless it springs from and overflowing heart. Overflowing not with good intention and condescending self righteousness, but overflowing with the love of God. This you do not have of yourself, nor can you give, however much you might desire to do so. You will possess this love only as you wait upon Me and take time to absorb it from Me, like a quiet flower takes life from the warm rays of the sun.
Your heart will be cold otherwise. For your ready ardor and natural sympathy and common kindness will soon be cold by the chill winds of ingratitude and others’ unlovely reactions. Do you think the love of Jesus was always well received? Would He not have brought His ministry to an abrupt end on many occassion if He had needed the appreciation of people to motivate His loving service?
Have you read the reaction of the religious people to the recital of His miracle-working power in Luke 4? The exhibition of God‘s love draws forth emotions in the unregenerate heart that are nothing short of murderous at times. In other cases, God‘s love is met by callous indifference and criminal ingratitude, as with the nine lepers who never returned to express so much as a word of thanks for their deliverance from a walking death. (see Luke 17:12-19).
In the face of divine love being poured forth on Calvary – the holy, sinless GodHimself dying for sinful, depraved, undeserving humanity – what is the reaction? Gratitude? Love? Contrition? No! Hate lashes out in jeers and mocking. Violence and cruelty flow forth like a river and mingle with the very blood that was spilt for their redemption!
No. Human kindness will ever be enough. It will never fill the twelve baskets with fragments. There will never be any crumbs left over for others unless you first eat from your own personal love feast with the Savior.
Let Him fully satisfy your soul-hunger, and then you will go forth with a full basket on your arm. Twelve baskets there were (see Matthew 14:20). One for each disciple. There will always be the multitudes to be fed, but few are called to minister. This is by My own arrangement. As the Scripture says: “My brethren, let not many of you become teachers, knowing that we shall receive a stricter judgment”(James 3:1).
Here’s what i gather.
Sin & Life’s experiences/situations have caused and continue to cause the holes in my being… (less of me) wounds from the enemy that is intended to cause pain and devastation. These wounds would bleed, hurt or even get infected IF HIS Healing and Living Water did not flow through me. What satan intends for pain, God redeems for His Glory and to feed others the testimony of His faithfulness – His life giving love and goodness.
Because He overflows me with love it HAS TO escape somewhere.
i MUST stay connected to the SOURCE. He feeds me, nurtures and strengthens me so that as He chooses to use me… i am available to minister to the hungry – the thirsty – the weak and broken. Only by His healing – sustaining and abundant LOVE is this possible.
REMAINS the SOURCE of ALL i could ever need.
