“Free Falling”- Rapid uncontrolled decline
Have you ever been skydiving? Have you ever experienced what it feels like to free fall? It’s weird because it kind of feels like you are just floating. Floating with no control. It is a terrifying feeling with glorious results.
Rebekah Lyons, author of “FreeFall to Fly,” spoke at my church on Monday. Boy… did her talk resonate in my head and heart. You see… I was free falling through life for quite a few years. I was floating around feeling completely out of control, lost, scared, and broken. When I was 22 I had a major event happen that changed the course of my life in a terrifying way with glorious results. I turned into a person I didn’t recognize or really even one I liked. I found solace in alcohol and self worth in guys. My world revolved around getting hammered, going out to the Buckhead bars, and meeting guys that thought I was pretty. I was still going to church on Sundays and participating in Bible Studies but I wasn’t even trying to have an authentic relationship with the Lord. On Sunday mornings I was being a “Christian” when mere hours b/f I was acting like anything but a Christian. I thought that life was pretty great and my stories were even greater. So why did I feel so empty? Why did I feel so alone? Why did I feel so worthless?
I’ll tell you why… I was falling towards darkness not towards God. I was desperate to be rescued from this plunge and by God’s grace I have been redeemed. The parachute finally opened and God was there to rescue me- a normal girl- me with all my sins and all my brokenness. He was there to breath new life into me. “And after you have suffered a little while. the God of all grace, who has called you to His eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you.” 1 Peter 5:10 “For by grace you have been saved, through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is a gift of God.”- Ephesians 2:8
Oh!!! The glorious result! God’s grace is the only reason I was rescued and restored. How beautiful is that?
So now, I find myself free falling again. Free falling into the person God intended me to be. I have jumped off a cliff because I can no longer ignore God’s voice. And quite frankly, I don’t want to ignore it anymore. I am ready to be dependent on Him and surrender my life to Him. Rebekah Lyons told us “stay in the free fall, that’s where you find rescue. When you have been rescued, it is your turn to rescue others.“ So far this free fall (the world race) has been terrifying, exhilarating, amazing, and a thousand other adjectives. This time I am going to buckle up… no, I’m going to fall freely because I can’t wait to fly.
So, if you are free falling through life… stay in the free fall and know that God will always be there to rescue you and give you wings to fly! Trust in Him and His intentions for you.
