“Because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance” James 1:3
Sometimes I question and doubt the plans God has for me. It’s not something I’m proud of but it is something I will admit and am working on.
People keep telling me how brave I am, how strong my faith is, how courageous I am being. Every time I talk about the world race I have this overwhelming sense of excitement and peace… until recently. When someone asks about the race, I’m still excited but there is also a huge pit in my stomach and I have started to doubt my decision. I keep thinking… what have I gotten myself into and I keep doubting and questioning the peace that God has given me. So, there you have it- I am not brave, my faith is weak, and I am most definitely not being courageous.
Courageous, brave, a strong Faith- those are words I would use to describe my younger sister, Laura. Laura plays soccer at the University of Georgia and her dream has always been to play professionally. Last Tuesday, Laura tore her ACL for the third time. I have always been the type of person to find what I like to call “the blessings in the bad.” So when she tore her ACL the first time, I saw a person who found her identity in being “Laura Eddy” and not “Laura Eddy the soccer player” anymore. The second time she tore her ACL, I saw a person who found a real relationship with the Lord. Her faith has become something to be admired. And now that brings us to the third time she tore her ACL… I’m not sure there are many athletes out there who would go through with a third surgery but my sister Laura isn’t like those athletes. She is stronger, braver, and more courageous than most people I know and I hope that one day I can be like her. She believes in her dreams and more importantly she believes and trusts in an unfailing God. She hasn’t taken her anger out on Him and she hasn’t doubted the plans He has for her. So this time, her strength, bravery, courageousness, and faith have helped me to remember to “stand firm in faith; be men of courage; be strong”- 1 Corinthians 2:5. Laura, thank you for being a blessing and helping me to remeber why God is leading me on this journey!
***We had a route change- we are no longer going to El Salvador and Nicaragua. We are now going to Haiti and the Dominican Republic*** I’ll write an entry about the next 3 countries later this week!
