Spiritual Warfare… sometimes I feel like that is a taboo phrase.
“There are two equal and opposite errors into which our race can fall about the devils. One is to disbelieve in their existence. The other is to believe and to feel an excessive and unhealthy interest in them. ”
-C.S. Lewis from “The Screwtape Letters”-
This has been quite the month. A good month, a learning month. A month that is defining what it is I believe about God, about who I am in Christ, and about spiritual warfare. I feel like in my life spiritual warfare was never talked about or discussed. It has always been like C.S. Lewis said, it either doesn’t exist or only “the crazies” believe in it. And so far on this trip I have learned that that is so far from the truth.
This month though has left me with no option but to find meaning. Attacks in many shapes and forms have been surrounding our two teams here on Ometepe. In the past I have had such a limited view on what the words “spiritual warfare” meant. But I have come to know that it is so much broader than I could have realized!
Out of respect for the others involved, I cannot go into details about what exactly has been going on. But I will tell you how God is working in me.
I have had a ridiculous amount of questions. And I won’t deny it sent me into a desperate search for answers. I have listened to sermon after sermon after sermon, by multiple different preachers. I am in the process of reading a couple of different books. I have gone through the Bible and read every mention of the devil and demons. And I have talked to a couple of pastors about what exactly is going on to hear their insight. It has been so good, and God is providing so much clarity. He is helping me to find comfort in His wisdom and helping me to rely on what He has to say about a situation even if what I feel is not the popular opinion. It has been amazing! I am learning so much and feel like I am only coming closer to God through it. He is very tangibly guiding me through this process and I couldn’t be more at peace with the conclusions I am coming to. I would be lying if I said I didn’t still have questions, and some of them may never be answered, but I have peace, and for that I am thankful.
Please be praying for team Kaleo and team Ignite as this month has been hard, but it is also not yet over.
