So lately I feel like there have been a million voices in my head. Tellin me what they think I should do. What’s right or wrong. I couldn’t have a moment of my own thought. So I fianlly got by myself and wrote. I wrtoe what was goin on in my heart without all the voices in my head.
I want to make a difference.
That the choices I make will change someones life and last a lifetime.
I don’t need the whole world to know. But to know in my heart that I’ve touched a life.
I don’t want to be ok with mediocore anymore.
This life is so much more than what I’ve lived.
There’s more to do.
More to see.
I don’t want to be afraid anymore.
To secone guess every decision I make cuz I’m gonna let someone down.
I don’t want to be a people pleaser anymore, but be more interested in pleasing God.
I don’t want to feel like a failure anymore.
I know things wont be easy but I don’t want to be bound by failures.
I want to really love God and not just say I do.
To feel loved by Him. Then by being loved I want to spready that love, that agape love, to those around me.
To the people who have or feel that no one loves them. So they know they are loved and accepted.
I want to see beyond myself and want to walk with people in their joys and struggles with a joyful heart.
I wont to be able to hear God’s voice.
I want to be able to trust Him.
I know I don’t.
I don’t trust anyone.
But I want to. I want to let go. To surrender.
I want to be bold. I want to be broken.
For things that are not of God to be done with.
I want my heart to break. To be able to feel again. To cry again.
To not be so calloused over.
I’m tired of feeling like a failure and not being able to move forward.
But I don’t know what to do. Or where to start.
I want to live.
