We were asked to write about what our expectations are for our trip. I’ve been hesitant to write this because I’m not sure what to say or how I feel about these expectations. Going into something like this I can’t help but have some expectations of thing I would love to see happen. The problem with expectations sometimes though is that we can become so focused on wanting the things we want to see happen that we aren’t open to what God might have in store for us. We can become blinded by our own thoughts and ambitions and expectations that we could miss out on what God has for us. But here was my list of some of the serious/silly big/small expectations anyways:

that I would live in true community

that I would step outside of my comfort zone

that my heart will break for the people

that my walls will be destroyed only to have God hold me in His hands

that I would be molded and refined to look more like Christ

that I will cry like never before (in good and bad ways)

I’m sure people will get on my nerves and I will get on theirs

I will be at the point of exhaustion but still able to function

that I will learn what real agape love looks like and live it out

for my world to be turned upside down (I mean isn’t that what Christ’s life looked like..upside down and different from the things the world says and does)

that I would see God move in ways I’ve never seen before

to be a part of something bigger and greater than myself

to be humbled in ways I’ve never been before

that I would see through blood-shot eyes (will be explained in next post)

Those are a few of my expectations  BUT my prayer is that I would go in with no expectations. That instead I would go in as an expty slate willing and ready to just be used by God. This way I don’t miss out on anything God might have for me and my team. This way I’m not putting God in a small box of what I think could possibly happen. This way I can be amazed by the things and ways God will move.