About three weeks ago I arrived home from a very fulfilling experience called Training Camp. Within this time of being back home, I’ve taken the time to reflect on all that changed during an incredible 10 days. Training Camp season is an exciting time. There is so much excitement in the air for adventure, new relationships, and spiritual growth.
However, the night before I left for Gainesville, Georgia to meet up with my squad, I was plagued with worry and fear. I ended up making a list that consisted of all my worries. My list included sayings like;
“Not being good enough”
“Not being accepted”
Not being transparent”
“Not connecting with people”
“Not being worthy enough”
All these lies were being fed to me during this time of hunger in my life.
The worries that were being piled up in my head were immediately shut down upon arrival to training camp. Being able to give these worries up to a faithful God who can ultimately shine the light in any darkness in my life is the most uplifting experience.
During those 10 days, He kept putting in my head the word
“Interruptible.”
Over and over I kept hearing him whisper to me,
“Let me interrupt your life,
for I have plans for you that
you can’t even imagine.”
That first night in the woods of Gainesville, Georgia He invited me to go deeper.
And deeper I went…
I began to understand a part of the trinity in which I always felt the furthest from,
The Holy Spirit
In John 7:37-38 it says,
“Anyone who is THIRSTY may come to me!
Anyone who believes in me may come and drink!
For scriptures declare,
‘Rivers of Living Water will flow from His heart.’”
All I had to do to receive the Holy Spirit was to be thirst and drink!
What an amazing concept!
He wants to dwell within me where I can be in a partnership with my creator. If I let Him in, He will empower me!
He makes me brave
Without His presence I am overwhelmed with worry, self-doubt and fear.
But with Him I can do the works Jesus did and even greater things!
“I tell you the truth, anyone who believes in me will do the same works I have done, and even greater works, because I am going to be with the father.”
John 14:12
That literally stops me in my tracks and makes me stand in AWE of my God!
During my week at Training Camp, God interrupted my life. He showed me that through Him,
I am brave!
I am His child!
I am able!
I am beautiful!
I am worthy!
Instead of having questions like
“why me?”
“Aren’t there more qualified people out there?”
swirling around in my head, new questions began to form…
“Lord, will you interrupt my life?”
“Where do you want me?”
“Will you empower me through your presence, in Jesus’ name?”
“Will you make me BRAVE?”
As I go on this journey beginning January 2016, God has provided an incredible community, B-Squad, to go along with me.
Then, there are 5 amazing brothers and sisters who I’ll be doing everyday life with as we go out being disciples among the nations.
Our team name is Undertow
For we will abandon our control and allow God to pull us deeper, allowing Him to fill us up with His presence!
