God was my prisoner
God is so much bigger than my box that I have put Him in.
My Jesus has been too safe. Jesus has been too small. It’s been too easy to decide when I wanted to lift my hands during praise and sing a little louder. I’ve been too scared of what people think of me. Fear of man runs deep. I shouldn’t be able to stop and think about how I worship, and that is what a week at Training Camp did.
God is so much bigger than who I make Him out to be and I have been attempting to control Him for way too long. How silly it is to me now, allowing the approval of man to be more overwhelming than the approval of my God.
I can’t control when I lift my hands to praise Him- “When Daddy speaks, you listen!” If He tells you to dance during worship, you try and stop your body from moving to glorify Him. If He tells you to go for a walk during praise, you try and stay in your seat.
My God has been too small and I contend that yours is too!
It’s time for a paradigm shift. How we look at God has to change. It’s foolish to think that we know how God acts. He is bigger than our theology and that fact is something I never thought I’d have to believe.
My world was rocked at Training Camp.
I saw miracles. Two women with celiac disease were able to eat comfortably and not get sick at all! A guy was healed of a crazy allergic reaction to something- huge, itchy bumps vanished when he woke up. Numerous people were healed from back issues.
God showed up. Jacob from G Squad experienced the Hand of God amidst the entire camp, praying around and over him. He has been wearing hearing aids since first grade, and that night he was able to take them out and hear for the first time.
It was hard to believe, even as I was feet away from the miraculous. “I can hear you JT! I can hear you!” Chills, just chills. The prayer of the righteous are indeed powerful and effective. For whatever reason- God decided to reveal Himself among all of us that night and throughout Training Camp. We will praise Him whether He heals or not because He deserves all the glory, honor and praise.
It was incredible. The dancing, singing, praising around Jacob in ridiculous joy from the Father. And he heard it all without the hearing aids!
God healed people, God rescued us, He loves us! He even likes you!
He reminded me this week that I am Sought After and His Beloved. How do I live with the knowledge of those things before me? (Boldly, without shame) What changes? (Everything)
Dad showed me the box I have put Him in. He is destroying it. My faith is renewed, my mind is stretched. I need to stop trying to understand God, it’s time for me to be still and rest.
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