It’s all becoming a reality. Before this past weekend the thought of leaving for the World Race was just a misty object in the far distance. “Oh, I’ve got plenty of time to fundraise” or “Oh, yeah, it sure is coming up quick…” Yeah well, the mist has cleared and now I have two giant letters “WR” planted on October 2nd, 2010 in my internal calendar. My old life will STOP that day, and a NEW life will begin. I’m sooo ready! Or am I……….??
To be brutally honest, I’ve been going through some HEAVY spiritual warfare. I’ve had thoughts where I just wanted to GIVE UP going on the World Race. I was just so (and still am) overwhelmed with all the preparations of getting things settled for my departure….getting my car ready for my Mom….training people at work to do my job…..oh and did I mention struggling with fundraising?! It’s not like I don’t like to do those things, because in reality they must be done, but everything just builds up all at once, ya know? The past Friday was a day I had to battle the most. I had a not so pleasant feeling when I woke up, and I could just tell it wasn’t going to be a good day. I normally start my day out in prayer, but even after that I wasn’t still feeling the best……
I knew the first task of the day was to contact AIM and discuss my fundraising status. In order to launch I need to be over $5,000. Currently with future pledges and current donations I’m hovering around $3,500. Yikes! AIM had a date of Sept. 18th as a deadline to determine who would be able to launch to Guatemala with the rest of the Squad on Oct. 2nd. I was definitely afraid to hear the words “Since you don’t have enough funds, you won’t be able to launch with your squad.” I was totally stressing about that, but after talking with the lovely Laura Jacobs I was able to discuss my plan on how I would get over the launch mark.
But as the day went by I kept getting attacked with thoughts of “what if your plan doesn’t work?” “What if you do all those things you planned and still come up short?” These are all carefully thought out words from the enemy to try and steer me off God’s path. I’ll be honest, I gave in to some of those thoughts and that’s what ruined my day. Then a few other events occurred that day that involved my car almost being out of commission, and so I’d have to spend more money on it. It was just not a good day. Throughout the day, I kept hearing “where is your God now?” “If He is really there, why hasn’t He supplied your support account with funds so you can go on this supposed mission trip He supposedly has led you on?” “Where is your God?!” My reply…” GET THE #$%(# AWAY FROM ME YOU LITTLE PUNK!” I literally broke down and had to step out of the office for a few minutes to go pray. My God is here! My God is listening! MY GOD LOVES ME! My God is faithful to me! I had to suit up in my full armor of God.
11Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. -Ephesians 6:11
Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything; tell God your needs, and don’t forget to thank Him for His answers. If you do this, you will experience God’s peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will keep your thoughts and your hearts quiet and at rest as you trust in Christ. – Philippians 4:6-7
I WAS TOTALLY READY TO GIVE UP.
But you know what? God has never given up on me. He has never given up on any of us. No matter how many times we give in to the enemies lies, He will be there for us…running after us…trying to pull us back. We’ve never let Him down, mainly because we are not the ones holding Him up. He holds US up with His victorious righteous right hand (Thank you Skit guys!).
I AM NOT GIVING UP.
As I made the drive home, I did nothing but listen and sing along to worship songs. I wanted to get my mind off the spiritual attacks I experienced that day. I felt God’s presence all day…watching over me…coaching me…waiting for the right time to come and get me. It’s amazing how God uses music to send messages to us. I couldn’t help but feel overwhelmed with His love as I sang and worshiped Him. The spiritual attacks I experienced earlier were all just a memory that faded away. God won this battle. God came in at the right time and snatched me away from the enemies grip.
I WAS RESCUED.
God’s got my back. I KNOW He has a miracle that is waiting to happen. I know He has called me on to the World Race to be His hands and feet. He has equipped me with a heart full of love that needs to be shared with all the people of the world. This trip is not a going to be a vacation. For me, it’s a call of duty from God to deliver His everlasting love to impoverished children, men and women who have lost hope, and to share the Gospel with those who have not known. This trip is going to change my life. I know that financial support is NOT going to hold me back. But until I raise enough funds to launch and STAY on the race, I’m going to be struggling with more spiritual warfare. I must keep my fully body armor of God on at all times.
So tonight I ask of you, my wonderful blog reader, to partner with me in this ministry. I know times are tough (although I did hear that the recession was over…woo-hoo! J ) but if you could at least pray about supporting me with a onetime donation or support me monthly. That’s all I ask. And if God has so graciously placed it in your heart to support this ministry, then I thank you in advance. Remember, you’re not giving to me or the World Race organization, but you’re giving to the Almighty God that watches over us each and every day.
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Thanks for reading! 🙂
PK
P.s.
Check out this awesome video by The Skit Guys! It truly is a great testament on how amazing our God is! The second video is the World Race Promo so you can see what types of ministry you will be supporting with you kind financial blessing.
