Two weeks ago I turned thirty. I remember struggling and
hating myself that I didn’t know what my next steps after the Dream Tour were.
Yes, I know I have a passion to ‘wake up’ the youth and children to their true
identity in Christ, and it all sounds dandy and lofty, but what do I DO with
this passion? The more I thought about it, the more vague I felt like it was. I
hated that people around me seemed to know what they were doing – Sarah was
going to London; Katherine was going to work with homeless shelters and/or
Habitat for Humanity – their dream just seemed so clear and they knew what
their next steps were, but I still had no idea where I was going to land my
feet in twenty days.
I questioned myself that had I listened to Jesus and
answered His call way earlier in my years where I would be now. Had I listened
earlier, I probably wouldn’t still be here, at thirty years old, still trying
to figure out how I fit into the big picture of God. Why didn’t I listen to Him
earlier? Did He call me earlier?
I am learning to trust that His timing IS perfect.
That there really is no
point being apologetic that my dream still seems unclear at the moment.
What’s important is that I am going to run as hard and as
fast as I can after Him.
I am not going to back down or look back.
I am not going to regret or question one moment in front of
me whether I had chased after His heart.
Philippians 3:13-14
Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is
ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me
heavenward in Christ Jesus.
