I have been struggling with this blog for a while.
I am home.
Home home.
Sachse, Texas USA home.
I left Cahul, Moldova on Wednesday at 1am. Drove to Bucharest, Romania by 7am. Got on my first airplane at 10:15am. Left Istanbul at 12:30pm. Left Washington DC at 6:40pm. Arrived home at 10:30pm. Over 24 hours to travel. To get home.
Eight months too early.
Let me rewind.
I talked with my Squad Parents, Deon and Rynette on Sunday. I was told that I needed to come home for a month to heal my back, and then meet the team at the end of Kenya when they move on to Tanzania. I cried. So hard. My heart broke. I didn’t understand because just that morning God told me I would be healed in two weeks. He told me that I would be great, and that I would finish the World Race with this squad. After I got off the phone, Cassie and Diane prayed over me. I laid in my bed, crying my eyes out, while they put their hands on me and prayed. My squad parents told me they would give me until Wednesday to think about it. While Diane and Cassie prayed and sung worship songs, I suddenly felt at peace with coming home. I stopped crying. I knew I was supposed to come home. I got off my bed, called Deon back, and said to get me a flight home as soon as he could. The second call I made was to my parents. They had just got home from church, and were eating lunch. I cried on the phone for five minutes before I could even tell them what was about to happen. My parents and sister felt at peace about it as well. I told them not to tell anybody. Not even our extended family. I didn’t want anybody to know. Even though I felt at peace with it, I was still upset. I did not want to come home. At all. I just wanted to get healed as fast as I could, so I could come back to my squad, and go to Kenya.
Tuesday night comes along, and I am hanging out at the flat by myself, because my team went to a worship sesh with some people. I get a message from Adam telling me to start packing because I am leaving in less than four hours to come home. Dang. That was fast.
I packed, hung out with my team for the last time, prayed, and I left.
I am home now. I went to a back specialist yesterday morning. I had a few real x-rays done, and Dr. Carll said that I should be fine in a few weeks. I had an MRI done as well, and I will know on Monday for sure what is going on. All I know is I got some good medication, and I will be resting for a while to get better.
God told me I would be healed in two weeks. He just didn’t tell me where I would be when I was healed. I now know next time to ask more specific questions with the dude. He has quite a sense of humor.
I am home. My whole family now knows. I surprised them last night. It was funny, because they didn’t know how to react when I walked into the room. My family was under the impression that they were coming over to Skype using the new computer that is hooked up to our television. Little did they know, I was hiding in my dad’s closet waiting for the cue for my sister to “call and have a bad connection”. She waited until everybody was seated, and called me and asked if I was “ready to get on the computer to Skype”. Here is my hideout.
So I am home now. But for only a month. I will be going back to meet with my squad at the end of Kenya, to continue the race with them. I am home to heal. To be honest, it is bittersweet. I love being here with my family, and I know that they love me being here, but we know it is not where I am supposed to be right now. Continue to pray for me. I am at peace with being here. It is a supernatural peace that God has given me, but I am still struggling. Hard. Pray that God heals me, and continues to work through me for the next few weeks. Pray that I don’t stray; pray that I still get my time with God, because I am terrified that I will not be close with Him like I have these last three months.
Like I said earlier, I will have some more answers by Monday, and I will update when I can. For now, it is rest, medication, and diving into the Word.
Also, pray that the airlines find my bag. It is lost somewhere, and they have not located it. My bag has everything in it, and I kind of need it all for the remaining race.
And, here is my video. Enjoy.
