Freedom
It is hard to explain just how I am feeling, but I think this word pretty much sums it up. I don’t know what the next step in life will be. That is ok, but I do know that the world is at my fingers. I have grown so much this past year and I have been set free from many things.
The thing that stand out to me at the current moment is the freedom I have to pursue whatever it is that I have in my heart to pursue. I thought that going on The World Race God would narrow the road that He had planned for me. That it would become more clear. It is true, going on the race has made my future quite clear, but in a different way than I expected.
I thought that perhaps a certain ministry would capture my heart. That God would call me to a certain country. I kept my heart wide open and was waiting for God to show me where I was called to serve. Each month I was waiting for it, an aha moment, where I knew what or where God was calling me to.
I expected my path to be directed and my options to narrowed.
Actually that is quite the opposite of what really happened. I am home now and I never felt that pull to a country or ministry. In that, God has made my future very clear, but it is wider than I ever imagined.
At this point in my life I feel that God is sitting there in front of me with his hands open. He is saying,
“You Choose.”
There are so many different things that I could do, or be. God is such a good Father. He is asking me what it is that I want to pursue.
I find that when asked this question I am not sure what it is that I want to do. For my entire life I have been waiting to be told what to do and faithfully doing as I’m told. Now when it is my turn to choose I am not quite sure what it is that I’d like to do. The possibilities are endless. Wow.
I feel this amazing freedom that whatever I decided to pursue will please the Lord.
So as I sit here and ponder the possibilities, there is a smile on my face and there is a joy that is unexplainable in my heart. I love my Father so much.
For now, I don’t know what direction my life will take. I really want to go to school. I want to learn. I don’t know what I will study, but I have plenty of time to figure that out. I’d love to be in school next fall. Until then, I will continue to share what amazing things He has done in my life, continue to love those he has placed in my life, and praise Him and be thankful for every blessing He has given me.
Thanks for your prayers, you could continue to pray for my future. I know that it is going to be good!
