Hey everyone! I just wanted to update everyone on my status:
I’m still in a Nairobi hospital. Honestly, I don’t feel any pain. I feel perfectly fine, actually. My appetite is back and better than ever. I’ve noticed myself not needing painkillers. I’ve even started walking again (with cool crutches). However, the wounds I got from the last few weeks keep me from normal tasks.
After the minor surgery to clean out my wounds, I have two large wounds on each side of one ankle. They keep me from being able to put pressure on my foot.
I have one small and large wound on my right leg. These are the least of my worries. They don’t really prevent me from anything. They just need to be treated.
I have one wound on my left pinky. During the surgery, they made a few more incisions so it has to stay wrapped, making it hard to use. My hand is strong and well but the wrapping is too thick for me to grip things.
Yes, I have an illness but God has healed me. I’m in recovery. I pray for a quick recovery.
My illness/sickness/or whatever you want to call was to and is still to teach me, refine me, and grow me.
I’ve prayed and have believed in healing. God has given me it. My health is only improving. I’m getting better and stronger. That’s God’s healing hand.
I trust in God’s will. His will is good. It is right. It is best.
God guides my steps. He knows my next step. He knows my step after that. He knows where I’ll be next week, next month, and next year.
Currently I’m grieving leaving the World Race.
As crazy as this sounds, I don’t want this to be the end.
Physically though, I’m a bit of a mess. I can’t walk on my ankle. I can’t use my left hand. Reality is that I would be a burden and would need so much help. Reality is that I need to heal. Doctors say weeks or months.
My prayer isn’t for God to heal me in order to go back on the Race. That would be a bit selfish. My prayer is for God to continue leading my steps in the path He has already set for me. My prayer is for my heart to soften to the things He has planned for me—even if it means leaving the Race permanently. My prayer is for my trust in Him to keep growing. My prayer is for my independence to be broken and replaced by a dependence on Him. My prayer is for my heart to accept God’s beautiful plan with a joyful spirit. And my prayer is for my heart to heal from the loss of having to leave the Race.
Today was the first day that I grieved leaving the Race. I miss my team and squad. I feel God telling me that it is okay and to cry. It is good. I’m broken.
I’ve been reading everyone’s comments. Friends, family, teammates, and strangers are praying for me all over the world. There are people praying for me in every continent (except Antarctica as far as I know)! Hundreds of people have reached out.
My life is being transformed just by seeing the gathering of so many people.
The thought that hundreds of people are literally crying out to God on my behalf blows my mind. What a beautiful gift—to both God and I. God is watching His children come together and praise His name. We are acknowledging Him as our Lord! He is the answer!
I wish I could thank each person individually by name. I’ve been brought to tears to see all the love I’ve received. I feel like the richest girl on earth.
Thank you.
I will continue to update everyone.
As of now, I will stay in Africa for a bit longer. At some point, I’ll head back to America. It’s just a matter of logistics at this time. I’ll probably head back within the next few days. Not long. Maybe, if God gives me a quick recovery and calls me back to the Race, I’ll rejoin my team in Europe later.
Whatever happens, it will be perfect and good.
I’ve grown so much from this experience. I’ve learned more than I thought I ever would. I’m a different person. I love, see, and speak differently.
I will continue to praise His name. He has called me to an unknown and into deeper waters. I will continue to trust. My faith will continue to grow. And that’s what actually matters.
I continue to say yes to whatever His calling is.
Praise Him for what He is doing! He is so good.
I love you all. Thank you.
