Confession time… So I’ve been a pretty crappy human lately in the terms of blogging, reaching out to supporters, and updating the folks back home via social media. There is so much God has been doing through me, through my squad, and in each country these past few months. I have been selfishly keeping these stories to myself.
I’ve been feeding myself with lies to the point where I started to believe them. Lies such as: Every story needs to be perfect before I post it; I’m not good at collecting my thoughts so I don’t need to post blogs or tell stories; I only need to share stories with the family I’m closest to then it’s up to God for the stories to get to the people that need/want it; I’m trying to stay away from social media; Blogging and posting just isn’t my thing. The list goes on. And I’m realizing the list is a bunch of crap I’ve been telling myself because it’s easy.
It’s easier than admitting that I have been selfish, lazy, and undisciplined. Yes, I am trying not to spend a ton of time on social media. Yes, I do have trouble collecting my thoughts. And yes, writing out stories isn’t something I enjoy. But these are all things I’ve taken advantage of as excuses. And I need to learn to quit making excuses and take ownership of the actual problem.
Truth is I have some amazing stories. Majority of them I have not shared. And that is not fair.
It isn’t fair to you; the people who have loved, encouraged, prayed, and funded me. There wouldn’t be these stories if it weren’t for you and your obedience to God. It isn’t fair for me; to sit here and lie to myself and not admit that God is doing work through me. And it isn’t fair to our God who has so beautifully written these stories.
These stories are meant to be shared. They are meant to be known. They are meant to show us how beautifully the body of the church can work together and how important each and every part of that body is. So I’m not sure how, or where I will start, but I do commit to sharing more. You deserve these stories because you are just as much a part of them as I am.
So please give me grace and patience as I begin to learn the discipline of sharing. And also please hold me accountable. Don’t let me get lazy! I want to share this year with you!
