Wait…wait…none of us like to hear the word wait. Well, I am still waiting. When I was preparing to preach many times the Lord would only give me “wait” and wouldn’t give me anything else until right as I walked up to preach. I waited for my funds to come in and they came in right at the last second until this deadline when they never came in. Then the Lord told me to wait and trust His perfect timing. I may not understand His plans sometimes, but I know it’s always for the best.
I embarked on this journey to go deeper with the Lord, find healing, be challenged in new ways, serve, see the world, and love on others. This trip may have been planned for 11 months, but the Lord did all of this in 6 months. I wanted to stay for the ministry, friends, and traveling but part of it was also pride. I wanted to finish what I had started. I didn’t want to “fail” because I didn’t set out prepared to be on the mission field for 11 months, but the Lord NEVER told me it would be for 11 months. He told me, “Go” and I imputed, “for 11 months”. He had this all planned from the very beginning. So as I was praying, seeking Him, and talking with close friends on the race the Lord was showing me how He had prepared me for this next step. This journey began as something great and new. Living in community was a challenge and rewarding at the same time. This organization seemed perfect in my eyes when I first discovered it up until I was actually on the race. Don’t get me wrong I am glad I went on this trip. However, just like there is no perfect church there is no perfect organization. So of course there were things that came up that I did not agree with, but that is where we use our discernment. The Lord blessed us with discernment to use it for times such as this. They say to speak life into each other, but I found people they put in leadership position on and off the mission field weren’t always doing what they preached. Near the end of this journey I felt them speaking lies over me. Telling me how I was something I wasn’t or trying to say I haven’t grown as much as I have. This was the last piece the Lord needed to give me that confirmed it was time for me to come home.
If you haven’t realized it yet; I am home. I am home waiting. I’m waiting for the next step, waiting on the Lord. So here I wait to see what the Lord has planned for me. It is weird to be home and back in the United States of America. Transitioning has been difficult in some respects but in those difficulties perhaps the Lord is speaking to me about the next journey. And thank God for the friends He blessed me with on the race. If I didn’t have some of my closest friends home already from the race I don’t know how well I would be transitioning without them.
Thank you all who supported me!! This has been a great growing experience for me. I pray you will continue to follow and support me in the next ministry the Lord is preparing for me. He has BIG plans! Thank you again for everything. God bless you!!
