How was I called to the mission field?
Well it wasn’t writing on the wall, it wasn’t a post card from heaven….although I often joke about wanting one of those. Lets go back a little……
Well, once the Lord got ahold of my life, and I in response surrendered all to Him. THAT was the end of it. Yah see, God changes things. He really truly changes a person from the inside out. It was not…ABSOLUTELY not anything I did or am doing, but rather, Gods gracious hand. He’s given me a reason to live….and that reason is to bring glory to His name. PERIOD. However painful, tearful, uncomfortable, and dirty that might be. He is SO worth it.
I have been blessed to go on a few short term missions trips to Peru and Eastern Europe. I got the chance to love on Gods people, be spent for His sake, and catch a glimpse of His kingdom. WELL THEN, that was it. God was tugging, stirring, and pressing on my heart in a kind of way that doesn’t go away, that keeps you up at night, and that won’t let you be. I hid behind my own fear for quit some time. And man, I had AAAALLL the excuses in the book…like….
~ Well, I’m sure everyone feels this way about missions
~ I just need to save money, yah know, and buy a car and stuff.
~ DUDE, I’m just not ready at this point in my life.
~ I just want to make SURE that this is Gods will.
I wanted, and still want, to see and experience so much more of God. So amidst my fear, I began to give up things. Clothes, luxuries, entertainment, and the like..and spend more time seeking the Lord and asking for more of Him. Now don’t get me wrong. Those are not bad things to do, but In my case I was avoiding direction from the Lord because of fear. Then the LORD spoke.
“I Desire Your Obedience above Your Sacrifice”
So I gave it up…..my fear that is. I surrendered my security, my backup plan, and my pride and I asked Him to do as He pleased. I knew God would have me going somewhere but I wasn’t sure where. A year prior I had heard of The World Race and followed many of their blogs. So I asked the Lord to confirm this specific trip. Three things I asked. I won’t get into detail on here (although I would be happy to talk more in depth over email) but HE DID THEM. Each and every time I witnessed one being confirmed….I cried. Pure AWE swept over me and I felt the Lord wrapping His arms around His doubting daughter and giving me His strength. Yah see my friends, I didn’t need to fret. I am a child of God and as such, I AM HIS WILL. Through surrender, He will use my hands as His hands, and my feet as His feet. THE END
