I’ve yet to have any profound thoughts for this little blog of mine..however I must say I am driving MYSELF NUTS!
I applied and was accepted back in December..DECEMBER..for the record it is now March
…almost 4 months and I haven’t even sent out support letters..correction I haven’t even sent out ONE SINGLE support letter…
so of course I haven’t even started any real fundraising…
I’m not going to lie I may be freaking out just a little
…realizing it’s been longer since I’ve known I was going to be a part of this a did nothing till the time I’m actually leaving..assuming I actually do some fundraising.
I’ve come to the conclusion that someone needs to slap me..
I’ve had many moments such as this in the past few months, where it hits me what exactly it is that I’m about to embark on and how much money that’s going to take yet I am STILL in denial
…for the record I’ve always hated the word denial and thus far in my life if anyone ever tried telling me I was in denial…well obviously I denied it! So this very well may be the first and LAST time I’m admitting to be in denial, but it tis true and I don’t have a darn idea what to do about it (that’s where the slap comes in?!)
I keep praying about this…
not only do I pray for an answer that this REALLY REALLY REAAAALLY is what God wants me to do but if he would please make it REALLY obvious
..so far no such luck..
I’m sure he’s answered this prayer in about a million different ways I was probably just been to far down the river to notice…
I’m pretty sure he wants me to do this, actually to be accurate I feel about 99.99% sure this is God will for me, this is all his plan and not mine because honestly I HATE traveling..oh about as much as I hate people trying to tell me I’m in denial so I’m pretty positive this is NOT something I would have came up with on my own…
but then again how can I be sure right?!
..Man where is the big flashing neon sign when you need it?!
So I guess it starts with doubt and not trusting in God or myself and then that takes us to the denial..
which leads in perfectly to some more doubt and thus the cycle continues and I drive myself crazy (and probably many of those around me too!lol)
Anyways if you all could keep my neon sign in your prayers…
I think I will seriously go nuts if I don’t get some sort of confirmation soon
…prayers for some motivation and stellar fundraising skills wouldn’t hurt either 😉
I applied and was accepted back in December..DECEMBER..for the record it is now March
…almost 4 months and I haven’t even sent out support letters..correction I haven’t even sent out ONE SINGLE support letter…
so of course I haven’t even started any real fundraising…
I’m not going to lie I may be freaking out just a little
…realizing it’s been longer since I’ve known I was going to be a part of this a did nothing till the time I’m actually leaving..assuming I actually do some fundraising.
I’ve come to the conclusion that someone needs to slap me..
I’ve had many moments such as this in the past few months, where it hits me what exactly it is that I’m about to embark on and how much money that’s going to take yet I am STILL in denial
…for the record I’ve always hated the word denial and thus far in my life if anyone ever tried telling me I was in denial…well obviously I denied it! So this very well may be the first and LAST time I’m admitting to be in denial, but it tis true and I don’t have a darn idea what to do about it (that’s where the slap comes in?!)
I keep praying about this…
not only do I pray for an answer that this REALLY REALLY REAAAALLY is what God wants me to do but if he would please make it REALLY obvious
..so far no such luck..
I’m sure he’s answered this prayer in about a million different ways I was probably just been to far down the river to notice…
I’m pretty sure he wants me to do this, actually to be accurate I feel about 99.99% sure this is God will for me, this is all his plan and not mine because honestly I HATE traveling..oh about as much as I hate people trying to tell me I’m in denial so I’m pretty positive this is NOT something I would have came up with on my own…
but then again how can I be sure right?!
..Man where is the big flashing neon sign when you need it?!
So I guess it starts with doubt and not trusting in God or myself and then that takes us to the denial..
which leads in perfectly to some more doubt and thus the cycle continues and I drive myself crazy (and probably many of those around me too!lol)
Anyways if you all could keep my neon sign in your prayers…
I think I will seriously go nuts if I don’t get some sort of confirmation soon
…prayers for some motivation and stellar fundraising skills wouldn’t hurt either 😉
Then again maybe pray for that slap, I’m pretty convinced that just may do the trick!
