Hello, My name is Nikka. I never go by Domonique.
I hate fleece. Everyone is beautiful. my siblings will never know how much I adore them.
I love being an aunt. Animals are the perfect gift.
People need the Lord.
I was 17 when the women I spent my whole life with passed away from congessive heart failure. My grandma. Kelly Hills. She was flawless, in her love for Jesus.
May 24th 2010.
3 months later, the women I moved in with after my grandma's deatth (my cousin) Katie Marie was found in our basment home hung by a belt.
August 28th 2010.
2011. I graduate high school early && moved out to Tulsa, Oklahoma to attend Oral Roberts University. The 5th week of school the girl who lived across the hallway on my floor (my friend) Carissa Horton, was shot && killed while walking in the park with her boyfriend.
September 18, 2011.
2012. The day after my 19th birthday, ( my cousin's ) mom died of cancer.
January 31st, 2012.
2013. Hattie (my friend who took care of me in my time of grief after losing my grandma && cousin) baby died of SIDS as a 3 month old baby girl name Quiline. February
April 17th. (One of my best friend's ) Tecia's little brother died of a heart attack he was 15. Devon.
In the past three years I have seen the spirit of grief face to face. I have shook his hand personality. He has even tempted me to join him in the ralley of death. I cannot explain the words of my pain && suffering.
I went on a missions trip to Brazil last summer. I found God there again. You see I was raised in the church by my loving grandma, my father is out of the picture, my mother delt with her addiction. It wasn't until my grandma died where I lost Him.
What we never realize is that God never loses us though, we are always in the palm of His hand. What I have learned is that tomorrow is never promised. So love God fully everyday. Love others half as much && love your family with all the rest that you have. I have learned that in a world so dark && cold, the light & warmth of God is a mere whsiper away. All you have to do is ask.
Every time I fell God closer than my skin, was when I was on the brink of destruction. I never had a Father, && when I lost my grandma I lost my whole sense of security in that moment. God became all that I ever needed, all that I thought I could do on my own He did that && beyond.
I gave up, He fought for my heart harder.
I pushed Him away He laid next to me closer.
I ran, He bumped into me.
I screamed at Him. He held my hand.
I cried, He gave me a knee to lay upon.
I have learned
God is a loving Father
God is merciful
God heals everything
God is gentle
God is kind
God is very, very patient
God is wonderful, oh && perfect oh && breathtaking!
Through all my sorrow, I found peace. Through all my storms I found shelter. Through all my pain, I found healing. && through all my days I just found Jesus, everyday, all day. Forever.
When people ask about me, this is what I say, I repeat my past, I say what mess it was, then I rejoice in the goodness of a Mighty Savior who just wants you to know Him.
Now I'm the youngest granddaughter in the family, the only grandchild saved, && I'm travelling the world for the poor && powerless. Maybe only maybe if I could save one person & show them that through anything there is always faith & hope, that love can never die, it will all be worth it. Even just one person. Jesus would have went through all of his suffering even if it were just for you. That's what it's all about anyways, the glory FOR God. God is my beloved nothing more about me the world could come across.
R.I.P to all the love ones I have lost.
Romans 5:3-5 " Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4 perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5 And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us."
[My grandma]
