Hey ya'll, I knows I shoulda wrote about training camp, unfortunately that never happened, so here's a little about what God was teachin me at trainin camp and pre-launch. I just flew out of St. John's. Right off I had a delay which caused me to miss my connecting flight. I was blessed to have some awesome friends there, and an amazing sister who called air canada and got my flights rebooked, and then a wonderful breakfast at the Stapleton's -breakfast with with people who are dear to you is an awesome way to start a day of travel! And then as I sat waiting for my flight I looked out at he ocean and this beautiful province i love. I got to see a 'grey foggy' day burn off into a beautiful sunny day. So a delay that at first seemed negative was filled with blessings in the end. It's hard to say goodbye for a year, and that has a lot to do with the amazing people I have in my life here, there are so many of you, thanks for the how you all bless me! (:
Training camp was hard, but in a good way. I was struggling with things like not wanting to leave my comfort zone, was this really where i'm supposed to be, realizing I had a baseline western idea of comfort and ideas of things I'm entitled to, and so on. I was talking with one of my fellow racers, and I'm so grateful for her honesty, because as she shared similar feelings it enable me to be honest, becuase I didn't feel like I could share asI thought I was being weak and shouldn't feel that way. But then she also shared with me, and encouraged me, that we need to long for God, to be homesick for Him. And I know that God did call me to the Race this year, that this is where He wants me to be. So though I am nervous, and I know there is work God wants to do in me that will be hard, I'm excited for it! These are some lyrics which I feel are describing, and will describe my coming journey [Makin Me Over by Json]:
I'm definitely not who I was but
No I'm not who I will be
But I'm becoming someone who he's making me daily
Just watch and you'll see
Get used to me
Cause the man who you knew ain't no more
And the man who he is will soon be
Newly defined
Renewed in the mind
Attached to the vine as he pull me
Yes he's making me over
and i'm excited about that, even though I know it won't be an easy process. I'm excited about and the people i'll meet, the relationships I'll develop with them and my team, and my squad.
I'm grateful to God for knowing what I need, and meeting my needs, not my wants.
