I’m currently at 5 days, 7 hours, and 13 minutes of no food.
Today was the hardest so far by a lot. I’m freezing, my body is shaking, my stomach is in a whole new pain, my muscles are cramping, i can’t focus. I cant sleep.
I find myself asking why a lot… why fast? why do something so uncomfortable, so foreign to my body? What is the point?
First and most obvious answer, fundraising… i need 5,180$ in the next 47 hours… this is a ridiculous amount of money to be asking for especially in that amount of time. And really how does fasting help in anyway? .. Well it does make people aware, and it also makes most people read it and go wow this guy is crazy! … Yay! i am crazy, im living out of a 50pound backpack traveling the world helping people and sharing Christ. I AM CRAZY … but if im not willing to be crazy for Christ then who is ???
Second, expectation and obedience. I expect God to provide for the mission He has called me to. I’m fasting in obedience to His Word and to maintain an active expectation of seeing Him work Miracles. Fasting causes the cause i’m fasting for to be the only thing on my mind. Making me constantly aware of my expectation of God to work a miracle and my fervent prayer for one to come to be.
Third, I am sick of being comfortable, after training camp and being a minimalist already i am just sick of this lifestyle. The abundance, the lack of community and desire to help the people around you. Perhaps fasting was my way of escaping that and further preparing me for the race. Now don’t misunderstand i miss food, i am hungry, i love the idea of being able to eat whatever i want whenever i want. But that’s not the point. The negativity comes from the over abundance we both desire and ultimately do nothing with. And granted this may not be you or even people you know but i think everyone can agree that they could shave off some of their excess and put it to better use. I’m just the radical end of that.
I dont really have an end to this post.. i Guess just that i have 47 hours to go, i need prayers, i need a miracle, I need everyone who sees me as crazy to shave off some excess and put it to a better use. And i love you all… even if i dont know you, i love you and i would love to talk to you about this awesome crazy trip that will change my life and yours too if you decide to partner with me.
