Change happens…often. Whether it's physical, spiritual, or emotional, change affects the things we do and how we do them.
From the first day at training camp, God had already begun this work in me. I gathered with hundreds of other believers from all over the world. All were there for one purpose–to prepare for 11 months of service to the nations. The Word of God was preached, and His name was lifted up in worship. But my heart wasn't in it. I found myself singing, but was not truly worshipping.
You see, I had allowed myself to become distracted. I immediately judged anyone who worshipped and praised God differently than I did. It affected my worship.In addition, and more importantly, I struggled with truly believing in the power of God. I professed my belief with my mouth, but was afraid of just how much power He has. I had never experienced His power to speak to me, to heal, or to fill me with more of Himself. Yet He was working all around me. I cried out to God to help my unbelief. My boyfriend Alex (going on the World Race Route 4
) encouraged me one night, "I think you just need to surrender, and trust that God is working and is in control." Although I desired to do just that, I wasn't ready to.The next day was Thursday, July 19, 2012. This is a day I will never forget. During my quiet time, God spoke to me specifically through His Word like never before!! Ephesians 1:15-19, 2:13-18 and 3:14-19 are what He used. (I encourage you to take the time to read these passages) After my reading, I prayed to the Lord, surrendering to Him all my apprehensions, doubts, fears…anything keeping me from true belief in His power. But it wasn't until later when God made the change. While standing in line for lunch, I decided to share my decision with my family and friends through Facebook. As I clicked "Post" God brought a song to mind. Because I am known for constantly singing or humming songs,
I didn't think anything of it. UNTIL I looked up the lyrics for the first verse.laugh,
and smile all at once!
"Can you hear it, the gentle voice of the Spirit.
There's no reason to fear it. He's calling you to life.
Just surrender, run into the arms of the Father.
The night is finally over. Take a step into the light."
