Funny and not funny at all how it’s exhilarating and terrifying at the same time. I’m excited and hesitant. I’m ready and I’m not ready. In fact I feel completely inadequate. I want to get started at home and I want my time in Spain to last longer simultaneously. I have been given a specific call to reach out to those trapped in the sex industry and over the last few days the weight of this reality is beginning to not just rest on my shoulders, but to press in on my shoulders.
In class today we were challenged with this very same realization: we all have a purpose and a responsibility and we need to recognize the weight this carries, not because of how it affects us, but because of how it affects others. I will be investing my life into people. Sons and daughters of the Most High. Mothers and fathers; brothers, sisters, cousins, aunts and uncles. For me to not take this seriously would be a tragedy. The men and women who I will have the honor and privilege of crossing paths with and pouring out love to deserve an urgency in my spirit to take what the Lord has placed in my heart and passionately pursue His vision for His children.
In all honesty, letting the truth pierce my mind that the Lord trusts me with this vision absolutely takes my breath away. I know not a single ounce of this will be through my strength, nor am I being called to this alone. I am a warrior for Christ and it is His armor that I am suited in; that I find rest, power and peace in. I pray not one day goes by when I start losing sight of the gravity of the situation. And the situation is people. I am a part of the Body of the Church proclaiming the Name of the Head of the Church to men and women who may not yet know just how much He loves them. This is a responsibility that deserves my entire being. And my entire being He has. 🙂
