…but I don’t belong to the world. John 15:19 makes it clear: “If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you.”
The first question out of my dad’s mouth, when I told him I was going on this trip, was “you’re going to quit your job in this economy?” Now, he is a Christ-follower and knows full well that when we’re called, we must go. But he is also a parent, and I understand his concern. I replied “yes.” (obviously. Otherwise I would not have this blog, not be on this website, etc.). 🙂 The Lord has shown me time and time again that He will, without a doubt, meet all my needs. It may be in unexpected ways. It may not come on my timing. But His provisions will come and they will come with His heavenly force, which is beyond describable.
I actually am excited that I don’t know what my future on this earth holds. I think this planning-depravity will keep me from returning to levels of comfort that make it easy for my dependence on Him to lessen. As I mentioned in my previous blog, I am not ok with “comfortable” anymore. There is so much pain in the world, with so many people desperate for Christ, that if I “settle” for life-as-I-know-it when we come home I could be drastically missing what Christ has called me to: utter surrender. That’s not to say He won’t call me to participate in ministry in my hometown. He might. Or He might send me to…Antarctica (I hope He sends me a parka then too 🙂 ). I don’t know. And I don’t need to know. Right now I need to know that He has beckoned me on this trip and He has opened all the doors He wanted to open. He has also shut all the doors He wanted to (I’d applied for a position with Not-For-Sale, and anti-trafficking organization, a while ago). My everything, literally everything, is His, so may His will be done in my life. And may He grant me the wisdom and discernment along the way to hold on tight to His hand and rest easy in His peace and guidance. And if the world calls me crazy…so be it. 🙂
