There are so many thoughts floating through my mind.
I landed in Atlanta last night, met up with a fellow racer (a one and only Miss Erica Shappie), took the Mata (sp?) to North Springs and joined a house full of fellow racers.
May I just begin by saying that I've never in my life been in a house filled with such anticipation, such joy, and such willingness. The few people that I have met thus far are amazing beyond belief. We have already started to bond, despite the long travel days and weary eyes. I've never seen such community among strangers. It's an atmosphere filled with encouragement, filled with love, but most importantly it's filled with Christ.
I can't help but think back to Joshua and the commission the Lord put on his life after Moses' death. There's a sense of empathy when I think about how he must have felt in that moment of being commissioned. A little excited? A bit overwhelmed? Kind of scared? All those emotions probably blended together to create a sense of anticipation and perhaps urgency . . .
BUT, how did he feel AFTER he walked through the camp and announced God's Word to the people that would now be looking towards him for guidance, both in the land and in their spiritual walk? Probably terrified. There's that moment of certainty and finality. That moment that says, 'okay – you're doing this and there's no turning back.'
I had that moment last night. It was such a strong feeling of finality. It overwhelmed the very depths of my soul. This is real, it's happening, and there's no turning back. God has commissioned me to do this, to take on this challenge, to love the hurting and lost. And He has called me to do it in a way I would never imagine… in a way that is beyond my comfort zone and will stretch my boundaries. And while I might be a bit terrified and uncertain in some of the tasks that follow, I am anxious with anticipation.
I'm suppose to do this. I don't doubt that in the least. I just know that I'll need God more than EVER throughout this journey. That my relationship with Him is going to become even more stunning than it is now . . . and that excites me.
Until next time,
-Natasha<3
