Hello blog followers.
Such a journey life is. It absolutely blows me away sometimes. God takes us on spectacular adventures that in no way do we feel we deserve.
God had a different adventure for me these past two weeks.
As those of you who have read the past few blogs know, I was on track to head to Thailand and would have just gotten home.. However, God called me away from this specific trip. I cannot tell you, it was one of the harder decisions I have had to make. I have selfishly argued with God, cried and just struggled because I did not want this to be what He had. Going has also come pretty naturally to me. God calls me to live in Africa… I am there, but staying is a whole different ball game. Kind of felt similar to when I thought I was moving to Washington D.C. full-time and then felt God tell me to go back to Portland and stay put for a while. But as many of you know, when He calls you better listen, even if it is the last thing you would expect. I do want to apologize to those of you who gave financially or of your time praying. I do thank you though because you were still apart of an amazing group going and their amazing story! One of the girls has been incredibly transformed, you can read her blog at adventureonmyheart.wordpress.com
I am not going to go into all the details as to why I felt called to stay back and ended up not going on this blog but I would be happy to share them in greater detail with you if you would like to email me. Instead though, I would like to focus on some of the positives.
One of my friends encouraged me big time about these past two weeks. She said “You are going to think about this team more than almost anyone else but the teams families, and so what better opportunity then to get to pray for them?” I was able to view these past two weeks as a fast, that anytime I was wishing I was there I was instead able to use that pain to remind me to pray. Such a great perspective to adopt verses the whoa is me I wanted to do this thing. Thankfully, the team was only six and so they really only needed one leader anyway so it all worked out so good. God truly knows better than us.
God calls people into things but He can also call people out of things.
Instead of this trip, I will be leading another trip within the next year. I have waited to post this blog because I was hoping to tell you which trip I would be leading instead, but the verdict is still out. Either way I just want to be ready to go or to stay whenever God has me, because ultimately there is no better place to be but than the center of God’s will.
Love you all, thank you for your love and grace.
