This month has been a crazy month. A month of being humbled
by misunderstandings and convictions from books read. It has been a month of
seeking clarity for my future after the race, and of falling in love with the
beauty God created here in Thailand. From the beginning though, it has been a
month of experiencing and finally understanding God’s undeserved love for me.
There is a very precious girl here, more or less and angel
(since we cannot use their real names, that is the name I will give her,
Angel*).
morning we were here she got me water and asked me to sit with her at
breakfast. I thought that was sweet, but had no idea it would become the norm.
Every single meal she would get me water, clear my plate, and bring me extra
food or anything else she thought I might want. I would try to politely say ‘No
you do not have to do that, thank you, but you don’t have to.’ Eventually I was
told to not object but just say thank you because it is a part of their customs
to serve us in that way.
would work out she would bring me water. Every morning she would make sure to
wake me up so I did not miss breakfast. She constantly was giving me gifts;
whether it was one of the many bracelets, notes, drawings, or some other
precious possession she gave up to bless me. It is usually hard for me to
receive things, I feel guilty, especially when I have not done a thing to
deserve them; but she just kept giving and serving.
^Our room^
We colored together, walked around and looked at everything
on the property, she taught me the best way to fish in their pond, and I
twirled her around to the music the girls put on. We played with the rubik’s
cube Bethsaida gave me for my birthday and made a lot of hand gestures to try
to communicate. She is eleven, so she is on the older side of the girls and
takes care of the younger ones so well. She has such a servants heart and is
going to make an amazing mother some day.
One night I was in my bed curled up with my bible and Angel
came over to hang out. She saw I was reading my bible and ran to get hers. She
showed each other our favorite verses and then she wrote in Thai John 3:16 in
my journal.
Ten days ago Angel went home to spend her summer break with
her mother. It was sad to watch her leave, but was a blessing to meet her
mother. Her mother is incredibly young but seems very sweet from the short
encounter we had. Angel is supposed to come back any day now and I get excited
thinking about it.
been said between us. She has been my Angel, me learning how to receive love
even when I do not deserve it at all. Yes we became friends, but she loved me
unconditionally before we had ever played together or spent any time with each
other. She has loved me as God loves us, and through her I feel like I can
understand His love a little better; for that I will always be thankful to her.
^Angel coming over to see me right after I got off work^
*Names have been changed to protect the privacy
of the girls
