I am wide awake tonight with so many thoughts rushing through my head as I hear the sound of the raindrops falling softly on the roof and porch. Its really quite a beautiful and soothing sound but for some reason I just can’t sleep. My mind is full of thoughts about the future. Really, all have come about because of what I have been learning in classes here at G-42 in Spain.
I told most of you that this is an intense training school equipping me for the future. However, like most of you when I left, I didn’t even really know what that meant or the ways in which I would be challenged. Well let me tell you I’ve been challenged. This last week Dave Hearn has been speaking on leadership, goals and dreams. He has asked us to think about our dreams and come up goals to achieve those things that God has put in our hearts. I’m learning that the things I’m passionate about and like doing are things that God wants me to do. He made me unique and isn’t going to call me to something that I don’t have any interest in.
Dave gave us the homework assignment of coming up with 3 week, 3 month, and 3 year goals. When I first heard this assignment I pretty much freaked out thinking I don’t know what my 3 week goals should be let alone 3 year goals!!! I mean, how can I plan that far in advance? Well, after talking to Dave and his wife Beck more they helped me to realize that goals can change but its important to head in some direction. So I did the assignment but it was really general with some things because I thought I could do lots of things and there are lots of things I’m passionate about.
Then came the next assignment. Putting together a team, listing specific people that could help you through prayer support, financial support, and volunteering etc… We were told to be specific and also list the areas where we have holes such as, business or financial knowledge. Well, as I was doing this I kind of realized my vision was to broad as I had helping the homeless, elderly, orphans, single mothers, and my community. Basically, I could have just put everything!
It wasn’t until today that I realized what I’m most passionate about is orphans and was all of last year and really for as long as I can remember. I’ve also always wanted to work with and help orphan children to feel loved and wanted. I may not know a lot about each of the countries I went to last year but I could tell you a story about a child from about every country that captured my heart. After realizing this I thought this is great but what am I to do with this? See I know that playing with the orphans in Haiti and really playing with the children all over the world made a difference in ways I may never know, but what did it really do long term? This lead me to ask other questions of what could I do to help these children long term and how could I really be a help to them while in America or for right now Spain. Its easy for anyone to go to another country play with a child and be heartbroken when its time to leave. Then, maybe tell a few people about your experience. After that what is being done for that child to help improve his or her quality of living? In the case of orphans, giving them loving families and a future? I’ve known several families who have changed a child’s life forever through adoption. I also have friends who were adopted. I’ve heard this process is expensive, hard and long. Do to one of these reasons couples who would like to adopt a lot of the time,don’t.
I have realized what I want to do but not sure exactly how it will look. I want to help orphans’ cries for family to be heard. This is what is keeping me up at 3:45 in the morning. Surely something more can be done then what is being done now. I am excited to see the ways that God will show me more specifically how to help in this problem and to bring God’s kingdom through helping orphans to be adopted into families. Please continue to pray for God’s direction in this. If you would like to be part of my team because this is something on your heart, contact me! I would love to know who I can be emailing with more specific prayer requests and plans when they come.
