I’m tired.
I’m tired.
I’m tired
&I am homesick.
It’s month 6, which means I have been away from home for the longest period of time. There are random moments where I crave so badly to have my car, drive to the beach, run or bike up and down Pacific Beach & hold a nice cold acai bowl in my hand while watching the waves. I want to go to my mom’s restaurant and eat kimchisoup, dolsotbibimbap, & all things korean. I want to go home to my cats & talk to my friends about everything and anything that is happening in their lives for hours.
Malaysia has been hot as heck. My body is instantly drenched in sweat the moment I step out of the shower. I can’t seem to be hydrated… EVER. I’ve watched far more episodes of friends and movies than I have ever watched in a span of a month. I have also befriended many living creature (aka ants, mosquitos, & moths) that like to cuddle with me multiple times a day.
Yes, I know… that’s a whole lot of complaining.
& i’m sorry if that started out very depressing.
But life is good y’all.
It is so so good.
I am so thankful that I am in this small, middle of nowhere town called Gua Musang this month. I am thankful for all the people that we have met here that have showered their love on us. I am thankful for the missionaries that are called to this place, because their obedience is SUCH a huge testament on how real our Lord is. I am thankful for creative ways of reaching out to people of closed countries. I am thankful to be on a team that loves Jesus so much. I am thankful that we get to eat 3 meals a day & I am thankful that we can walk to get wifi and some delicious boba whenever we want.
I am thankful for the opportunity that I have each and every day to be an example of my fathers love. That I get to live with his Holy Spirit in freedom and in truth. I can wake up every day knowing that I can have a relationship with THE creator of the universe and TALK TO HIM EVERY MOMENT OF MY LIFE & complain to him about all the things that I miss about home. I am thankful that I am loved & still LOVED.
I have grown more this year than I have ever grown in a span of half a year.
I have learned more about what it looks like to love other people well.
I have set foot in 6 countries.
I have met SO many amazing people with beautiful stories.
BUT most importantly, I have spent endless amounts of time with the Lord this year than ever before. & that is enough. YES… my flesh is weak & I want & wish for so much. But there’s no place I rather be… than to be in His presence & share that with people all over the world.
