It’s already month 6. Malaysia’s humidity is drowning me in my own sweat. Currently I am in Gua Musang, Malaysia having the time of my life with my team. I realize I haven’t blogged much about what exactly happened in Nepal after the earthquake so I thought that it would be good to reflect back on the past 3 weeks and give you & my future self a glimpse of what was going through my heart & mind.
To frankly put it, I was sad, sassy, and annoyed that we were leaving Nepal early.
Why are people freaking out so much… none of us are even hurt?
Why can’t we just suck it up and stay one more week?
There’s SO much work to be done here in Nepal.
People are receiving & listening! We can’t leave…
People have to live through this for the rest of their lives… and we, who know that we’ll be on steady ground in one week, is running away. again…
God, why are you sending us out of this beautiful & broken country so early?
& an internal battle began in my heart once again. The anger I felt was even greater than when we left the little village. God called us to feed the hungry and clothe that naked. If I were to imagine all the people of Nepal as Jesus, and I knew that I was leaving to some bougie island to get some rest while these people were without a home or even food, then I would be so upset with myself. I did not understand.
But God sweetly reminded me the day that we (P-Squad) got to choose what would happen in the following week. He told me that the squad was my family. That even though the country was going through turmoil, I had to remember that my family had to be served first and foremost. Like a pastor cares for his family before the congregation, I too saw P-squad as my family. How can you serve the nation when the people next to you were hurting as well? Although I was unhappy with the decision, God reminded me that He had Nepal in His hand. That me staying in Nepal for one less week will not change anything… because with or without me, Christ has the power to save the souls of the people of Nepal. I was humbled and left the airport of Nepal with an overwhelming sense of peace.
1. Remember that sometimes your ministry can only go well when you are serving your family well.
2. The way you love and treat those near and close to you reflect your love for the ones that you may not know.
3. Pain is pain, sorrow is sorrow, fears are fears. Don’t take anyones feelings lightly.
4. God is in control.
