A long, but beautiful story!
My friends recently showed me this video and after I watched it, I couldn’t seem to get it out of my head. His story is so powerful & God was the center of it all. & thats exactly what I want. I want my life here on earth to matter.
I recently blogged this on my tumblr:
“The past couple of days, God’s been reminding me how precious this life is. That the people I interact with, at every moment, matters. I want to take every opportunity that Christ has given me seriously and joyfully. I too want to love on people as if it were my last day. I want to be more intentional with my words and actions to Glorify God.”
& with that, God has been mad convicting me.
Everyone I meet & interact with, God has been whispering in my ear telling me that this can be my last day or their last day. I can see some interactions change by that mere thought. Urgency begins to build up & I think, “what would I say if this was my last conversation? How can I love on them more? What would Jesus do if He were here?”
You would think that with this conviction I would change an x amount. However, many of these situations end with those mere thoughts. & it kills me a little inside. WHY, why do I care so much about what people might think and say? Why am I SO embarrassed? This is SUCH good news, why do I hoard it all? I cling to Christ knowing I can’t do this on my own. My flesh is SO weak. I seek man’s approval, attention, and affirmation, when in fact I should be surrendering ALL that to Christ.
& as much as I am ashamed of my weaknesses, I also slowly see God working in me. I see myself dying to my fleshly desires. Considering other peopls words and their needs before mine. Being slow to anger and slow to speak. To see them as Children of God. I know i‘m not perfect, and I still have soo much pride to lay down and soooo much “thats just not me moments” to push aside, but I believe God is molding me.
My friend recently asked me what my worst fear about going on missions was & the only thing I said I feared was that “time would be wasted. I want to make every moment count & do all that I can for His Glory.” But I realized that if I didn’t want that to happen, I would have to start now. How am I living day by day, not wasting the time God has given me?
We may not have the luxury of knowing when we will die, but we do have the luxury of knowing that there are SO many unreached people in this world. TIME is so precious.
