8 Then I heard the Lord asking, “Whom should I send as a messenger to this people? Who will go for us?”
I said,
So here I am, with no idea how I’m going to process all these thoughts on a blog. Where do I start? What should I say? How can I truly capture all that God is saying to me? I have no idea…
This whole fundraising campaign has got me on the tips of my toes. I have been thinking of various ways to fundraise money, it’s really a humbling experience to say the least. The process of getting accepted had its own trial but was a piece of cake compared to what lies ahead of me now as well as all the others in my team. It’s a test of faith and a trial of trust far greater than I have ever experienced with God. Even at this very moment my mind tries to fight its way back to the “Human” way of thinking.
23 “What do you mean, ‘If I can’?” Jesus asked. “Anything is possible if a person believes.”
24 The father instantly cried out, “I do believe, but help me overcome my unbelief!”
-Mark 9:23-24 NLT
I was driving home the other night with the music loud, like always trying to speak with God. My mind was cluttered; a mess, it felt as if it were literally all over the place. I cried out to God in worry of how in the world I was going to financially get sent out to do his work. How am I possibly going to raise $16,962? Not only that everything that comes before that; the bills, the passport, the airline tickets, the tent, the backpack, etc. Once I got past the; who, what, when, where, and how’s God was able to speak. Was I going to listen?
33 Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.
–Matthew 6:33
He then began loving on me. I heard the song (No longer slaves) that was playing in the car just cry out how I felt in that moment. “I am surrounded by the arms of the Father; I am surrounded by songs of deliverance. I’m no longer a slave to fear, I am a child of God.” God consumed me in that car and didn’t want me to let go of what He was trying to teach me. To continue to trust in him and walk in the spirit because my body is weak. He told me to go home and keep worshipping in the spirit.
Immediately entering the house you get (in a sense) distracted by greeting your parents or loved ones. You glance at the TV to see what’s on, and you decide you need to eat something. Half-an-hour later you realize what you were supposed to do. I tried to head into my room to get back into worship when I put down the stack of support letters I had in my hand. Yet again my flesh stepped in and said you don’t have much time, you need to get to work on shipping these letters. I picked the letters back up and went in the dining room to finish them up. I sat there for hours until midnight, with only one letter completed. I was stressed and I was trying to make it happen by my works. My mom (the night-owl she is) walked over to me and said what you need to do is pray over those letters and go to bed. A lot more took place but that was exactly what I needed to do. To put in other words what you need to do is put it in God’s hands and keep living.
See I had lost the time with my Father to waste hours on literally nothing but carrying the weight and burden of what God had already stated he would take care of. I let my flesh rule over the situation and I stumbled in what could have been a lesson learned the first time. God is trying to teach us just how much He loves us if we would just incline our ears to his voice and cast our cares upon him.
7 Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.
-1 Peter 5:7
I know some readers might think why is this important? What in the world does this have to do with the world race? How does this pertain to the cause? Well, simply because if my team and I do not learn to be led by the Spirit of God how can we possibly expect to impact lives. Yes we can go out and give them the knowledge we do have of what God’s word says. We can plant churches and play with kids and show them compassion but if not done through the love and direction of the Father we can count it all worthless. We would be wasting our time. We would be wasting your contributions.
3 How foolish can you be? After starting your new lives in the Spirit, why are you now trying to become perfect by your own human effort?
-Galatians 3:3
I encourage you all that in everything you do, be willing to yield to the Holy Spirit. It was sent as a gift for peace of mind to teach us the ways of our Father. Ask God’s calling upon your heart mature Christians, we need to start stepping out in faith. Keep my team and I along with everyone else in prayer that God reveal his plans and supplies the need.
18 And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is.
-Ephesians 3:18
