Last night I went to bum wifi off of the local Starbucks here in Gainesville, GA. I attempted to fill out several applications to hopefully find a job that would provide me with enough money to pay my car payments. However, every time I tried to complete an application something would go wrong. The website would crash, the internet would go out, always something.
After about 5 hours of trying and failing, I finally realized that God was trying to tell me something.
When I was in the wilderness a couple of weeks ago, I realized that I had been relying on myself more than I had been relying on God. Specifically, in the area of finances. I had been stressing about money, finding a job, and all that jazz. God told me that I needed to give Him control and trust that He isn’t going to call me to something and fail me.
With that being said, I am pretty confident that God doesn’t want me to get a job while I am here at the Center for Global Action. Between office work, classes, and being involved in other ministries, I simply don’t have time. I can see how I would be burnt out if I had another job in the evenings and how it would take away from the things God is trying to teach me through working at AIM, my discipleship classes, community, and mentorship.
I am sooo blessed to get to empower applicants considering going out on the mission field by sharing my story and speaking truth into their lives. It is so awesome to witness my experience come full circle and such a vital part of what has to be done to reach the nations. I have also been blessed to join a ministry for divorced women called Phylla House that Helena Jardao started. It is such a powerful and needed ministry! God is doing such a redemptive work there and it is really amazing to see that part of my life come full circle, as well.
Anyways, I say all that to say that… I am giving God control. I want to be completely invested in what He is doing in this season of my life and I want to devote myself to continue serving in full time ministry, even if that means sacrificing things.
I know my God is going to provide for my every need, if I allow Him to. So, this is step one! I have admitted these hard truths out in the open!
I believe there is someone out there that God is telling to pay/help pay my car payments for the time I am here or that there is someone out there that God is telling to buy my car. While a car would be nice, sometimes you have to get rid of good things to make room for great things! If you feel a tug, please pray about it.
If you can’t help, but know someone who might be able to, would you spread the word along for me? I would love to share my heart with any contacts you may have that might be interested in supporting a struggling missionary 😉
I couldn’t do this without you guys! If you can’t afford to support me financially, I am always accepting prayers!
Thank you for all you have done for me already. I have been so blessed by the faithfulness and the giving hearts of those who made my race and CGA possible. I can’t express how thankful I am for you all! I love you a lot!
Be blessed! Mo
