In July, I went to a week of training for The World Race. I have shared so many stories with a lot of people about how it pushed me spiritually, physically, and emotionally. It was just an incredible week where I got to experience deep intimacy with my Father.
I went into training camp excited about getting the opportunity to change things and to in turn be changed in the process this year. I was ready for a new season and to see what the Lord had instore for me. A lot of you know that a little over a year ago, I went through the most painful season of my life. I had grown to accept it and be thankful for it, because of how it strengthened my relationship with God, but I still knew that I hadn't completely let go of all of the pain from that. So, in my mind, this year was going to be an amazing journey that would hopefully bring me into a place of full restoration.
Well, through out the week, I realized that there was stuff I needed to drop now. The pastor was speaking about how we are going into battle, so we can't be bringing all of our baggage in with us. He talked about unforgiveness and how it will pop back up when we least expect it. He talked about how we can't effectively minister to others, if we are still broken ourselves. The Lord really showed me that there was stuff that He was asking me to let go of, before the race.
One night, in particular, we were praying and prophecying each other in the sanctuary. Every one was just about done, when I felt a pair of hands on my shoulders. I thought it was one of the girls on my squad, so I leaned back to embrace her. When, to my surprise, it definitly wasn't a girl from my squad. Instead, there was a tall man with a big poofy afro, praying over me. It was one of my squad leaders, Justin Warren. He is an amazing man of the Lord with a calming presence and contagious spirit. I hadn't had the opportunity to talk with him much, and he definitly didn't know my story.
Inspite of knowing very little about me, he spoke over me the most powerful words that I have ever heard. He chose to be obedient in what the Lord had given him and took a risk that ended up rocking my world. He said, "Morgan, the Lord gave me an image of your heart and there were 3 scars going across it. Then, I saw the Lord healing those scars." I broke. This was the moment that I caught a better glimpse of just how deep God's love for me is. I know He has been there with me throughout my life, but I guess I hadn't really let how much He cares for me really sink in. To know that the Creator of the universe longs and desires for me to know that I am truely loved and cared for by Him, as his precious daughter, is amazing.
I started to realize, God doesn't have healing to give me over this year or in time. He wanted me to receive His healing now! He desired for me to be free from pain in my past, now. He didn't want to see His daughter hurt anymore, and He was crying out for me to grasp ahold of what He was handing out to me. And you know what?! GOD HEALED MY HEART! Just like that… there wasn't a special prayer, time didn't have to heal this wound, there wasn't any weird process I had to go through…He was just waiting for me to take what He had been offering me, and when I did, that was it.
During the time between training camp and launch, I got to see just how true that healing really was. Situations from my past got brought back up, and things happened that were literally just like a huge slap across my face. If these things would've happened a few months ago, I am not sure how I would've reacted to them, but I know it wouldn't have been how I was able to now. I was able to respond with a heart of contentment, forgiveness, and genuine love. I was able to speak blessings over people who have caused me pain, instead of negativety. I was able to see them through the Lord's eyes and not be blurred by my hurt. I was able to accept things with excitement and peace. I'm not saying that I won't ever get sad or down, but I can tell you that the Lord has given me a joy that FAR outweighs any other emotion. I have learned how to choose not to let my emotions rule over me. I have learned that the Lord does have an incredible story written out for me and I am whole- heartedly running after that.
I am excited to see what the Lord has planned for me. I am excited to fall deeper in love with Him. I am excited to take this love affair on the road. I am excited to get to know my Daddy more! I am excited to invite Him and involve Him in my day-to-day more than I ever have. I know I keep saying, I am excited, but it's because I AM! I want to convey my joy to you, so you can see how the Lord is working in me. I want you to know that the same healing He gave to me, He has for you. I want you to know that God doesn't just care about your big problems, He cares about every single minute detail in your life. He cares about every frizzy hair on your head. He loves you with such a deep, wide, crazy, insane love! He wants to be intimate with you. He wants to laugh with you. He wants you to feel special. HE WANTS YOU!
　
　
　
Thank you, for your obedience, Justin!
