For some reason I thought that blogging would just come naturally on the race just as it did when I was at home. Here I am at the end of month 2 and I feel like so much has happened that I want to tell you about but I can’t seem to find the words.. The word journey is describes exactly what this is. This is not a missions trip. This is a journey. God is changing me in every way. He is changing the ideas that I have about God and who He really is, He is changing me and the role I thought that I had in ministry, and what ministry even is. This month has been very rough for a lot of us. Some of us are feeling drained, we are on the go all the time and we are praying and worshiping and seeking the face of God. That is no small task! For some reason I was fooled in to thinking that we were doing nothing this month. I wanted to do something more than riding buses around and praying. I wanted to feel like I was making a difference. Our host Ruth gave us an insightful word on this very subject of “feeling useful” and shared her testimony with us.
She then shared with us the impact we make with every smile and every small conversation. As Americans we carry an authority in the world that we are totally unaware of. In these small villages they see Americans as educated and very important people. Can you imagine the weight that carries when you tell someone about Jesus? I had not. In the U.S. most 27 year old unemployed college dropouts are not seen as educated or important, so I never thought about me making an actual impact on someone else’s life. So my story this month is telling you that I have recognized that I am somebody and that I do have something to offer. The prayers are not empty and meaningless. They are everything I have and that is more than ok, thats great!
