It is so late to be wide awake but I am finding that more often than not i am tossing and turning with my mind racing with training camp check lists and last minute things I need to do both before camp and before launch. I am so excited. It feels like just yesterday that I was submitting my application online. It was much like this late night blogging. A friend said the other day “this is going to go by so fast, and before you know it you will be back in Stockton…” I can not get that sentence out of my mind. I don’t want to think about the end with anticipation and excitement. This is such an amazing opportunity and I don’t want to sleep through it just to go back home. I want to enjoy every moment of this and since the last 8 months have gone by in a flash I pray that I don’t let the next 8 months go by without my savoring every moment that I can. I will not allow myself to think about the end of the race, if I do I will end up being miserable and depressed the rest of the 14 months of service. So I am choosing to stay present and focused on the here and now. God did not give me the power to be a visionary, I have never seen the “big picture” and I’m not quite sure that I want to. I just want to live one day at a time serving Him and being His hands and feet. Oh the places we will go….
Just as I was telling my mom earlier…I can only focus on my life about two weeks at a time right now….I can get to camp and mid-terms but beyond that my brain can not handle anything else!
So I think that will stick to that for right now and it will just have to do 🙂
Ok ok ok….goodnight!!
