Well, I am getting ready to dive in head first to the most amazing fundraising summer ever! I have to say that the Lord has supplied every need so far and I know that He will deliver above and beyond what my little human mind can imagine. The closer I get the less terrified I seem to get. It’s like the Lord is calling me and saying “come on in the water is just fine!” With a relaxed grin on His face just standing on the water with his cool shades on just waiting on me to trust His words. lol ok ok ok….I trust. Tonight I choose to simply trust in all of the crazy things that He is telling me.
I can see a shift starting to happen in my life. I see my dear friends moving into different seasons of life just as I am. Seasons that make me sad and yet very happy all at once. I know that when I leave we will all be in very different places and that when I return home that I will not be the same person. I sometimes think that I want a sneak peak at what God is going to do. Then I really think about it and realize that i if I only knew the plans that He had for my future I would probably run screaming in the other direction. lol So i’m just going to press forward to the sound of His voice.
Last week I got ahead of His voice a little bit. I went in to the church office to make copies of my support letter and 30 minutes later and 250 copies later I looked down at the letter and found a major typo. Then upon reading further I found several typos! I was so frustrated. This was after a week of one frustration after the next I was so done. I wanted to throw it all in the garbage and walk away. (Yes I do have a dramatic tone to me) I was tired, frustrated, and running late for the next item on my list. I stood at the table for about 10 minutes just staring at the letter. Knowing that a few letters had already gone out to some family members and close friends I was covered in embarrassment. I had taken so many things into my own hands instead of working at the pace that God had asked me to. Instead of listening when He told me to slow down and rest I just went speeding along my way. After collecting my thoughts and picking up my embarrassment off the floor, I called out to the Lord and he gave me the sweetest sense of calm. I went on about my business and made the corrections and printed and copied my letter. I am not in control of anything. Even when I try really really hard to do the right thing I still make mistakes. But guess what? God is going to provide every need. He will gloss over the typos that I continue to make in life and maybe even in this blog post but I know that every typo will work for the sake of His glory.
