That Four Letter Word

Home.

Since debrief in El Salvador we have talked about that little four letter word.

What it looks like to prepare for home but to also stay focused out here. How to start processing the idea of re-entry. To think about adulting again.

I’m still trying to figure out how to get out of that last one. 

So I can’t exactly say it snuck up on me, but here we are.

I have one more month left out on the field.

And then I come home.

Now there are  still plenty of times when that is still hard to wrap my brain around. The thought of home tends to make me super excited and slightly terrified at the same time.

There are so many things I am looking forward to going home to:

1. My family and friends! And my dog. I’m ready to see all their faces in person and not on a small screen.

2. A washing machine. Yes, I am now a pro at hand washing clothes, but lets be real, are my clothes really clean or do I just think they are?

3. A bed. I don’t have to explain that one.

4. Hot showers. That will always stay hot. Water that doesn’t run out.

5. A fluffy towel. Y’all use a quick drying micro fiber towel for 10 months. You’ll jump into a pile of fluffy towels.

6. Driving a car. Oh my goodness I can’t wait.

7. Chickfila. Chickfila. Chickfila.

There is probably more but you get the idea.

But as much as I miss those things, I am also going to miss a lot about life on the field:

1. My crew. 46 people on fire for Christ. Now that’s community.

2. My teams. The people I have gotten closest to while on the race. The ones who have seen me at my worst and my best . How do you leave family?

3. Sleeping in the same room as at least 4 other people. What is being alone look like again?

4. The beautiful friends I have made in each country. Leaving every country has been hard, but going back home means I’m even that much farther away from them.

5. All the different types of ministry I have been able to be a part of.

6. My intimate time with the Lord. The difference of a quiet time in the simplicity out here and having to fight for that same space in the craziness that is the States.

7. The adventure. Shoot, what I have been able to experience, and eat and see has been mind blowing.

It’s crazy to think that I am at this point in time, where reflecting begins. But here I am, rounding 3rd and heading towards home.

But thankfully I have one more month.

One more month to be totally invested in the place the Lord prepared for me to be a part of since I said yes to to this trip.

One more month to make new friends and come alongside another awesome ministry.

One more month to pour into my teammates.

One more month to watch the Lord show up in incredible ways.

Because this year has been for Him.

And when I go home, my days will still be for Him.  

I’m just speechless that He still chooses to use me for His kingdom.

So here we go, one more month on this mission field before returning to the mission field that He has been preparing for me to go home to.

Belize I’m coming for ya.

America I’ll see you soon too.