One question I have been asked a lot over the past month is, “What are you doing once you get home?”
To be honest, this is a question that has given me a lot of anxiety (even sometimes before I left on the Race). Many people (myself, included) have expected me to know exactly what I’m doing when I get home. As much as I would love to know what I’m going to do for the rest of my life, I’m beginning to realize that is not what God has been planning for me.
This year has been different than any year I’ve ever lived. I often didn’t know what I was going to be doing a day beforehand. Friends and family members would ask me what ministry I was going to do the next day and I wouldn’t know. Sometimes we wouldn’t know until we showed up. I do not think this was a coincidence. Instead, I have looked at it as a type of training from God.
The World Race has been preparing me to get up and go when God tells me to.
It has prepared me to ask Him what He wants me to do, and often.
That’s all I’ve been doing over the past eleven months.
If there is one thing I’ve learned while being on the Race, it’s that my life isn’t mine to decide what I’m going to do with it for the rest of my life.
Does God give me choices? Absolutely!
But God has been preparing me for an uncomfortable life. One that is willing to be turned upside down for the sake of His Kingdom.
He’s not doing this in spite of me. Instead, He is doing this because He wants me to have more.
More opportunities.
More worship.
More growth.
More Jesus.
I don’t know exactly what I’m going to do for the rest of my life, because God has been revealing just a little bit at a time.
So, unfortunately, I don’t know that I will ever be able to tell you what God has planned for the rest of my life.
But I don’t think this next year will look so different from what I’ve already been doing (perhaps less travel).
I can tell you that He plans for me to practice being steadfast and to practice loving people the way I have been learning to love over the past several months.
With God, I’m on a need-to-know basis, and apparently, I don’t need to know anything else yet.
